The Scholarship Jacket
Short Story by Marta Salinas
The small Texas school that I went to had a tradition carried out
every year during the eighth-grade graduation: a beautiful gold and
green jacket (the school colors) was awarded to the class valedictorian,
the student who had maintained the highest grades for eight years.
The scholarship jacket had a big gold S on the left front side and
your name is written in gold letters on the pocket.
My oldest sister, Rosie, had won the jacket a few years back, and
I fully expected to also. I was fourteen and in the eighth grade. I had been
a straight-A student since the first grade and this last year had looked
forward very much to own that jacket. My father was a farm laborer
who couldn’t earn enough money to feed eight children, so when I was six
I was given to my grandparents to raise. We couldn’t participate in sports
at school because there were registration fees, uniform costs, and trips out
of town; so, even though our family was quite agile and athletic there
would never be a school sports jacket for us. This one, the scholarship
jacket, was our only chance. a
In May, close to graduation, spring fever had struck as usual with a
vengeance.1
No one paid any attention in class; instead, we stared out the
windows and at each other, wanting to speed up the last few weeks of school.
I despaired every time I looked in the mirror. Pencil thin, not
a curve anywhere. I was called “beanpole” and “string bean,” and I knew
that’s what I looked like. A flat chest, no hips, and a brain; that’s what
I had. That really wasn’t much for a fourteen-year-old to work with,
I thought, as I absent-mindedly wandered from my history class to the
gym. Another hour of sweating in basketball and displaying my toothpick
legs was coming up. Then I remembered my P.E. shorts were still in a bag
under my desk where I’d forgotten them. I had to walk all the way back
and get them. Coach Thompson was a real bear if someone wasn’t dressed
for P.E. She had said I was a good forward and even tried to talk Grandma
into letting me join the team once. Of course, Grandma said no.
I was almost back at my classroom door when I heard voices raised
in anger as if in some sort of argument. I stopped. I didn’t mean
to eavesdrop, I just hesitated, not knowing what to do. I needed those
shorts and I was going to be late, but I didn’t want to interrupt an
argument between my teachers. I recognized the voices: Mr. Schmidt,
my history teacher, and Mr. Boone, my math teacher. They seemed to
be arguing about me. I couldn’t believe it. I still remember the feeling
of shock that rooted me flat against the wall as if I were trying to blend
in with the graffiti written there.
“I refuse to do it! I don’t care who her father is, her grades don’t even
begin to compare to Martha’s. I won’t lie or falsify records. Martha has
a straight A-plus average and you know it.” That was Mr. Schmidt and
he sounded very angry. Mr. Boone’s voice sounded calm and quiet.
“Look. Joann’s father is not only on the Board, but he also owns the only store
in town: we could say it was a close tie and—”
The pounding in my ears drowned out the rest of the words, only a
word here and there filtered through. “. . . Martha is Mexican . . . resign
. . . won’t do it . . . . ” Mr. Schmidt came rushing out and luckily for me
went down the opposite way toward the auditorium, so he didn’t see me.
Shaking, I waited a few minutes and then went in and grabbed my bag and
fled from the room. Mr. Boone looked up when I came in but didn’t say
anything. To this day I don’t remember if I got in trouble in P.E. for being
late or how I made it through the rest of the afternoon. I went home very
sad and cried into my pillow that night so Grandmother wouldn’t hear me.
It seemed a cruel coincidence that I had overheard that conversation. b
The next day when the principal called me into his office I knew what
it would be about. He looked uncomfortable and unhappy. I decided I
wasn’t going to make it any easier for him, so I looked him straight in the
eyes. He looked away and fidgeted with the papers on his desk. c
“Martha,” he said, “there’s been a change in policy this year regarding
the scholarship jacket. As you know, it has always been free.” He cleared
his throat and continued. “This year the Board has decided to charge
fifteen dollars, which still won’t cover the complete cost of the jacket.”
I stared at him in shock, and a small sound of dismay escaped my
throat. I hadn’t expected this. He still avoided looking in my eyes.
“So if you are unable to pay the fifteen dollars for the jacket it will
be given to the next one in line.” I didn’t need to ask who that was.
Standing with all the dignity I could muster, I said, “I’ll speak to my
grandfather about it, sir, and let you know tomorrow.” I cried on the
walk home from the bus stop. The dirt road was a quarter-mile from
the highway, so by the time I got home, my eyes were red and puffy.
“Where’s Grandpa?” I asked Grandma, looking down at the floor so
she wouldn’t ask me why I’d been crying. She was sewing on a quilt as
usual and didn’t lookup.
“I think he’s out back working in the bean field.”
I went outside and looked out at the fields. There he was. I could see
him walking between the rows, his body bent over the little plants,
hoe in hand. I walked slowly out to him, trying to think how I could
best ask him for the money. There was a cool breeze blowing and a sweet
smell of mesquite2
fruit in the air, but I didn’t appreciate it. I kicked at
a dirt clod. I wanted that jacket so much. It was more than just being
a valedictorian and giving a little thank you speech for the jacket on
graduation night. It represented eight years of hard work and expectation.
I knew I had to be honest with Grandpa; it was my only chance. He saw
my shadow and looked up.
He waited for me to speak. I cleared my throat nervously and clasped
my hands behind my back so he wouldn’t see them shaking. “Grandpa, I
have a big favor to ask you,” I said in Spanish, the only language he knew.
He still waited silently. I tried again. “Grandpa, this year the principal
said the scholarship jacket is not going to be free. It’s going to cost fifteen
dollars, and I have to take the money in tomorrow, otherwise, it’ll be given
to someone else.” The last words came out in an eager rush. Grandpa
straightened up tiredly and leaned his chin on the hoe handle. He looked
out over the field that was filled with the tiny green bean plants. I waited,
desperately hoping he’d say I could have the money. d
He turned to me and asked quietly, “What does a scholarship
jacket mean?”
I answered quickly; maybe there was a chance. “It means you’ve
earned it by having the highest grades for eight years and that’s why
they’re giving it to you.” Too late I realized the significance of my words.
Grandpa knew that I understood it was not a matter of money. It wasn’t
that. He went back to hoeing the weeds that sprang up between the
delicate little bean plants. It was a time-consuming job; sometimes the
small shoots were right next to each other. Finally, he spoke again as
I turned to leave, crying.
“Then if you pay for it, Marta, it’s not a scholarship jacket, is it? Tell your
principal I will not pay the fifteen dollars.” e
I walked back to the house and locked myself in the bathroom for
a long time. I was angry with Grandfather even though I knew he was
right, and I was angry with the Board, whoever they were. Why did they
have to change the rules just when it was my turn to win the jacket?
Those were the days of belief and innocence.
It was a very sad and withdrawn girl who dragged into the principal’s
office the next day. This time he did look me in the eyes.
“What did your grandfather say?”
I sat very straight in my chair.
“He said to tell you he won’t pay the fifteen dollars.”
The principal muttered something I couldn’t understand under
his breath and walked over to the window. He stood looking out
at something outside. He looked bigger than usual when he stood up;
he was a tall, gaunt man with gray hair, and I watched the back of his
head while I waited for him to speak. f
“Why?” he finally asked. “Your grandfather has the money. He owns
a two-hundred-acre ranch.”
I looked at him, forcing my eyes to stay dry. “I know, sir, but he said if
I had to pay for it, then it wouldn’t be a scholarship jacket.” I stood up to
leave. “I guess you’ll just have to give it to Joann.” I hadn’t meant to say
that, it had just slipped out. I was almost to the door when he stopped me.
“Martha—wait.”
I turned and looked at him, waiting. What did he want now? I could
feel my heart pounding loudly in my chest and see my blouse fluttering
where my breasts should have been. Something bitter and vile tasting was
coming up in my mouth; I was afraid I was going to be sick. I didn’t need
any sympathy speeches. He sighed loudly and went back to his big desk.
He watched me, biting his lip.
“Okay. We’ll make an exception in your case. I’ll tell the Board, you’ll
get your jacket.” g
I could hardly believe my ears. I spoke in a trembling rush. “Oh, thank
you, sir!” Suddenly I felt great. I didn’t know about adrenalin3
in those
days, but I knew something was pumping through me, making me feel
as tall as the sky. I wanted to yell, jump, run the mile, do something.
I ran out so I could cry in the hall where there was no one to see me.
At the end of the day, Mr. Schmidt winked at me and said, “I hear
you’re getting the scholarship jacket this year.”
His face looked as happy and innocent as a baby’s, but I knew better.
Without answering I gave him a quick hug and ran to the bus. I cried
on the walk home again, but this time because I was so happy. I couldn’t
wait to tell Grandpa and ran straight to the field. I joined him in the row
where he was working, and without saying anything I crouched down and
started pulling up the weeds with my hands. Grandpa worked alongside
me for a few minutes, and he didn’t ask what had happened. After I had
a little pile of weeds between the rows, I stood up and faced him.
“The principal said he’s making an exception for me, Grandpa, and
I’m getting the jacket after all. That’s after I told him what you said.”
Grandpa didn’t say anything; he just gave me a pat on the shoulder
and a smile. He pulled out the crumpled red handkerchief that he always
carried in his back pocket and wiped the sweat off his forehead.
“Better go see if your grandmother needs any help with supper.”
I gave him a big grin. He didn’t fool me. I skipped and ran back
to the house whistling some silly tune.
The small Texas school that I went to had a tradition carried out
every year during the eighth-grade graduation: a beautiful gold and
green jacket (the school colors) was awarded to the class valedictorian,
the student who had maintained the highest grades for eight years.
The scholarship jacket had a big gold S on the left front side and
your name is written in gold letters on the pocket.
My oldest sister, Rosie, had won the jacket a few years back, and
I fully expected to also. I was fourteen and in the eighth grade. I had been
a straight-A student since the first grade and this last year had looked
forward very much to own that jacket. My father was a farm laborer
who couldn’t earn enough money to feed eight children, so when I was six
I was given to my grandparents to raise. We couldn’t participate in sports
at school because there were registration fees, uniform costs, and trips out
of town; so, even though our family was quite agile and athletic there
would never be a school sports jacket for us. This one, the scholarship
jacket, was our only chance. a
In May, close to graduation, spring fever had struck as usual with a
vengeance.1
No one paid any attention in class; instead, we stared out the
windows and at each other, wanting to speed up the last few weeks of school.
I despaired every time I looked in the mirror. Pencil thin, not
a curve anywhere. I was called “beanpole” and “string bean,” and I knew
that’s what I looked like. A flat chest, no hips, and a brain; that’s what
I had. That really wasn’t much for a fourteen-year-old to work with,
I thought, as I absent-mindedly wandered from my history class to the
gym. Another hour of sweating in basketball and displaying my toothpick
legs was coming up. Then I remembered my P.E. shorts were still in a bag
under my desk where I’d forgotten them. I had to walk all the way back
and get them. Coach Thompson was a real bear if someone wasn’t dressed
for P.E. She had said I was a good forward and even tried to talk Grandma
into letting me join the team once. Of course, Grandma said no.
I was almost back at my classroom door when I heard voices raised
in anger as if in some sort of argument. I stopped. I didn’t mean
to eavesdrop, I just hesitated, not knowing what to do. I needed those
shorts and I was going to be late, but I didn’t want to interrupt an
argument between my teachers. I recognized the voices: Mr. Schmidt,
my history teacher, and Mr. Boone, my math teacher. They seemed to
be arguing about me. I couldn’t believe it. I still remember the feeling
of shock that rooted me flat against the wall as if I were trying to blend
in with the graffiti written there.
“I refuse to do it! I don’t care who her father is, her grades don’t even
begin to compare to Martha’s. I won’t lie or falsify records. Martha has
a straight A-plus average and you know it.” That was Mr. Schmidt and
he sounded very angry. Mr. Boone’s voice sounded calm and quiet.
“Look. Joann’s father is not only on the Board, but he also owns the only store
in town: we could say it was a close tie and—”
The pounding in my ears drowned out the rest of the words, only a
word here and there filtered through. “. . . Martha is Mexican . . . resign
. . . won’t do it . . . . ” Mr. Schmidt came rushing out and luckily for me
went down the opposite way toward the auditorium, so he didn’t see me.
Shaking, I waited a few minutes and then went in and grabbed my bag and
fled from the room. Mr. Boone looked up when I came in but didn’t say
anything. To this day I don’t remember if I got in trouble in P.E. for being
late or how I made it through the rest of the afternoon. I went home very
sad and cried into my pillow that night so Grandmother wouldn’t hear me.
It seemed a cruel coincidence that I had overheard that conversation. b
The next day when the principal called me into his office I knew what
it would be about. He looked uncomfortable and unhappy. I decided I
wasn’t going to make it any easier for him, so I looked him straight in the
eyes. He looked away and fidgeted with the papers on his desk. c
“Martha,” he said, “there’s been a change in policy this year regarding
the scholarship jacket. As you know, it has always been free.” He cleared
his throat and continued. “This year the Board has decided to charge
fifteen dollars, which still won’t cover the complete cost of the jacket.”
I stared at him in shock, and a small sound of dismay escaped my
throat. I hadn’t expected this. He still avoided looking in my eyes.
“So if you are unable to pay the fifteen dollars for the jacket it will
be given to the next one in line.” I didn’t need to ask who that was.
Standing with all the dignity I could muster, I said, “I’ll speak to my
grandfather about it, sir, and let you know tomorrow.” I cried on the
walk home from the bus stop. The dirt road was a quarter-mile from
the highway, so by the time I got home, my eyes were red and puffy.
“Where’s Grandpa?” I asked Grandma, looking down at the floor so
she wouldn’t ask me why I’d been crying. She was sewing on a quilt as
usual and didn’t lookup.
“I think he’s out back working in the bean field.”
I went outside and looked out at the fields. There he was. I could see
him walking between the rows, his body bent over the little plants,
hoe in hand. I walked slowly out to him, trying to think how I could
best ask him for the money. There was a cool breeze blowing and a sweet
smell of mesquite2
fruit in the air, but I didn’t appreciate it. I kicked at
a dirt clod. I wanted that jacket so much. It was more than just being
a valedictorian and giving a little thank you speech for the jacket on
graduation night. It represented eight years of hard work and expectation.
I knew I had to be honest with Grandpa; it was my only chance. He saw
my shadow and looked up.
He waited for me to speak. I cleared my throat nervously and clasped
my hands behind my back so he wouldn’t see them shaking. “Grandpa, I
have a big favor to ask you,” I said in Spanish, the only language he knew.
He still waited silently. I tried again. “Grandpa, this year the principal
said the scholarship jacket is not going to be free. It’s going to cost fifteen
dollars, and I have to take the money in tomorrow, otherwise, it’ll be given
to someone else.” The last words came out in an eager rush. Grandpa
straightened up tiredly and leaned his chin on the hoe handle. He looked
out over the field that was filled with the tiny green bean plants. I waited,
desperately hoping he’d say I could have the money. d
He turned to me and asked quietly, “What does a scholarship
jacket mean?”
I answered quickly; maybe there was a chance. “It means you’ve
earned it by having the highest grades for eight years and that’s why
they’re giving it to you.” Too late I realized the significance of my words.
Grandpa knew that I understood it was not a matter of money. It wasn’t
that. He went back to hoeing the weeds that sprang up between the
delicate little bean plants. It was a time-consuming job; sometimes the
small shoots were right next to each other. Finally, he spoke again as
I turned to leave, crying.
“Then if you pay for it, Marta, it’s not a scholarship jacket, is it? Tell your
principal I will not pay the fifteen dollars.” e
I walked back to the house and locked myself in the bathroom for
a long time. I was angry with Grandfather even though I knew he was
right, and I was angry with the Board, whoever they were. Why did they
have to change the rules just when it was my turn to win the jacket?
Those were the days of belief and innocence.
It was a very sad and withdrawn girl who dragged into the principal’s
office the next day. This time he did look me in the eyes.
“What did your grandfather say?”
I sat very straight in my chair.
“He said to tell you he won’t pay the fifteen dollars.”
The principal muttered something I couldn’t understand under
his breath and walked over to the window. He stood looking out
at something outside. He looked bigger than usual when he stood up;
he was a tall, gaunt man with gray hair, and I watched the back of his
head while I waited for him to speak. f
“Why?” he finally asked. “Your grandfather has the money. He owns
a two-hundred-acre ranch.”
I looked at him, forcing my eyes to stay dry. “I know, sir, but he said if
I had to pay for it, then it wouldn’t be a scholarship jacket.” I stood up to
leave. “I guess you’ll just have to give it to Joann.” I hadn’t meant to say
that, it had just slipped out. I was almost to the door when he stopped me.
“Martha—wait.”
I turned and looked at him, waiting. What did he want now? I could
feel my heart pounding loudly in my chest and see my blouse fluttering
where my breasts should have been. Something bitter and vile tasting was
coming up in my mouth; I was afraid I was going to be sick. I didn’t need
any sympathy speeches. He sighed loudly and went back to his big desk.
He watched me, biting his lip.
“Okay. We’ll make an exception in your case. I’ll tell the Board, you’ll
get your jacket.” g
I could hardly believe my ears. I spoke in a trembling rush. “Oh, thank
you, sir!” Suddenly I felt great. I didn’t know about adrenalin3
in those
days, but I knew something was pumping through me, making me feel
as tall as the sky. I wanted to yell, jump, run the mile, do something.
I ran out so I could cry in the hall where there was no one to see me.
At the end of the day, Mr. Schmidt winked at me and said, “I hear
you’re getting the scholarship jacket this year.”
His face looked as happy and innocent as a baby’s, but I knew better.
Without answering I gave him a quick hug and ran to the bus. I cried
on the walk home again, but this time because I was so happy. I couldn’t
wait to tell Grandpa and ran straight to the field. I joined him in the row
where he was working, and without saying anything I crouched down and
started pulling up the weeds with my hands. Grandpa worked alongside
me for a few minutes, and he didn’t ask what had happened. After I had
a little pile of weeds between the rows, I stood up and faced him.
“The principal said he’s making an exception for me, Grandpa, and
I’m getting the jacket after all. That’s after I told him what you said.”
Grandpa didn’t say anything; he just gave me a pat on the shoulder
and a smile. He pulled out the crumpled red handkerchief that he always
carried in his back pocket and wiped the sweat off his forehead.
“Better go see if your grandmother needs any help with supper.”
I gave him a big grin. He didn’t fool me. I skipped and ran back
to the house whistling some silly tune.
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