FLOWERS FOR ALGERNON
DANIEL KEYES
progris riport l-martch 5 1965
Strauss says I shud rite down what I think and evrey thing that
st happins to me from now on. I dont know why but he says its importint Is so they will see if they will use me. I hope they use me. Miss Kinnian says Ie maybe they can make me smart. I want to be smart. My name is Charlie
Id Gordon. I am 37 years old and 2 weeks ago was my brithday. I have nuthing
more to rite now so I will close for today. In
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I had a test today. I think I faled it. and I think that maybe now they wont )f
use me. What happind is a nice young man was in the room and he had some 19
white cards with ink spillled all over them. He sed Charlie what do you see ton
this card. I was very skared even tho I had my rabits foot in my pockit ,/I
because when I was a kid I always faled tests in school and I spillled ink to.
I told him I saw a inkblot. He said yes and it made me feel good. I thot
n that was all but when I got up to go he stopped me. He said now sit down
d Charlie we are not thru yet. Then I dont remember so good but he wan tid me
to say what was in the ink. I dint see nuthing in the ink but he said there was
picturs there other pepul saw some picturs. I coudnt see any picturs. I reely
tryed to see. I held the card close up and then far away. Then I said if 1 had
my glases I coud see better I usally only ware my glases in the movies or TV
but 1 said they are in the closh in the hall. I got them. Then I said let me see
that card agen I bet III find it now.
I tryed hard but I still coudnt find the picturs I only saw the ink. 1 told
him maybe 1 need new glases. He rote somthing down on a paper and I got
skared of faling the test. I told him it was a very nice inkblot with littel points
all around the eges. He looked very sad so that wasnt it. I said please let me
try agen. III get it in a few minits becaus 1m not so fast somtimes. 1m a slow
reeder too in Miss Kinnians class for slow adults but I'm trying very hard.
He gave me a chance with another card that had 2 kinds of ink spilled
on it red and blue.
He was very nice and talked slow like Miss Kinnian does and he explaned
it to me that it was a raw shok. He said pepul see things in the ink.
I said show me where. He said think. I told him I think a inkblot but that
wasnt rite eather. He said what does it remind you-pretend something. 1
closd my eyes for a long time to pretend. I told him I pretend a fowntan pen
with ink leeking all over a table cloth. Then he got up and went out.
1 dont think I passd the raw shok test.
progris report 3-martch 7
Dr Strauss and Dr Nemur say it dont matter about the inkblots. I told them I didnt spill the ink on the cards and I coudnt see anything in the ink. They said
that maybe they will still use me. I said Miss Kinnian never gave me tests like
that one only spelling and reading. They said Miss Kinnian told that I was her
bestist pupil in the adult nite scool becaus I tryed the hardist and I reely
wantid to lern. They said how come you went to the adult nite scool all by
yourself Charlie. How did you find it. I said I askd pepul and sumbody told
me where I shud go to lern to read and spell good. They said why did you want
to. I told them becaus all my life I wantid to be smart and not dumb. But its
very hard to be smart. They said you know it will probly be tempirery. I said
yes. Miss Kinnian told me. I dont care if it herts.
Later I had more crazy tests today. The nice lady who gave it me told
me the name and I asked her how do you spellit so I can rite it in my progris
riport. THEMATIC APPERCEPTION TEST. I dont know the frist 2 words but I know
what test means. You got to pass it or you get bad marks. This test lookd easy
becaus I coud see the picturs. Only this time she dint want me to tell her the
picturs. That mixd me up. I said the man yesterday said I shoud tell him what
I saw in the ink she said that dont make no difrence. She said make up storys
about the pepul in the picturs.
I told her how can you tell storys about pepul you never met. I said why
shud I make up lies. I never tell lies any more becaus I always get caut.
She told me this test and the other one the raw-shok was for getting
personalty. I laffed so hard. I said how can you get that thing from inkblots
and fotos. She got sore and put her picturs away. I dont care. It was siIy. I gess
I faled that test too.
Later some men in white coats took me to a difernt part of the hospitil
and gave me a game to play. It was like a race with a white mouse. They called
the mouse Algernon. Algernon was in a box with a lot of twists and turns like
all-kinds of walls and they gave me a pencil and a paper with lines and lots
of boxes. On one side it said START and on the other end it said FINISH. They
said it was amazed and that Algernon and me had the same amazed to do.
I dint see how we could have the same amazed if Algernon had a box and I
had a paper but I dint say nothing. Anyway there wasnt time because the race
started.
One of the men had a watch he was trying to hide so I woudnt see it so
I tryed not to look and that made me nervus.
Anyway that test made me feel worser than all the others because they
did it over 10 times with difernt amazeds and Algernon won every time. I dint
know that mice were so smart. Maybe thats because Algernon is a white
mouse. Maybe white mice are smarter then other mice.
progris riport 4-Mar 8
Their going to use me! 1m so exited I can hardly write. Dr Nemur and Dr
Strauss had a argament about it first. Dr Nemur was in the office when Dr
Strauss brot me in. Dr Nemur was worryed about using me but Dr Strauss
told him Miss Kinnian rekemmended me the best from all the people who she
was teaching. I like Miss Kinnian becaus shes a very smart teacher. And she
said Charlie your going to have a second chance. If you volenteer for this
experimental you mite get smart. They don't know if it will be permanent but
theirs a chance. Thats why I said ok even when I was scared because she said
it was an operashun. She said dont be scared Charlie you done so much with
so little I think you deserv it most of all.
So I got scaird when Dr Nemur and Dr Strauss argud about it. Dr Strauss
said I had something that was very good. He said I had a good motor-vation.
I never even knew I had that. I felt proud when he said that not every body
with an eye-q of 68 had that thing. I dont know what it is or where I got it
but he said Algernon had it too. Algernons motor-vation is the cheese they put
in his box. But it cant be that because I didnt eat any cheese this week.
Then he told Dr Nemur something I dint understand so while they were
talking I wrote down some of the words.
He said Dr Nemur I know Charlie is not what you had in mind as the
first of your new brede of intelek,Hr (coudnt get the word) superman. But most
people of his low menr"'* are host~d' and uncoop'~~' they are usualy dull
apath,'0': and hard to reach. He has a good natcher hes intristed and eager to
please.
Dr Nemur said remember he will be the first human beeng ever to have
his intelijence trippled by surgicle meens.
Dr Strauss said exakly. Look at how well hes lerned to read and write
for his low mentel age its as grate an acheve H as you and I lerning einstines
therey of **vity without help. That shows the intenss motor-vation. Its comparat**
a tremen~d' achev~d' I say we use Charlie.
I dint get all the words and they were talking to fast but it sounded like
Dr Strauss was on my side and like the other one wasnt.
Then Dr Nemur nodded he said all right maybe your right. We will use
Charlie. When he said that I got so exited I jumped up and shook his hand
for being so good to me. I told him thank you doc you wont be sorry for giving
me a second chance. And I mean it like I told him. After the operashun 1m
gonna try to be smart. 1m gonna try awful hard.
progris ript 5-Mar 10
1m skared. Lots of people who work here and the nurses and the people who
gave me the tests came to bring me candy and wish me luck. I hope I have
luck. I got my rabits foot and my lucky penny and my horse shoe. Only a black
cat crossed me when I was comming to the hospitil. Dr Strauss says dont be
supersitis Charlie this is sience. Anyway 1m keeping my rabits foot with me.
I.asked Dr Strauss if III beat Algernon in the race after the operashun
and he said maybe. If the operashun works III show that mouse I can be as
smart as he is. Maybe smarter. Then III be abel to read better and spell the
words good and know lots of things and be like other people. I want to be
smart like other people. If it works perminint they will make everybody smart
all over the wurld.
They dint give me anything to eat this morning. I dont know what that
eating has to do with getting smart. 1m very hungry and Dr Nemur took away
my box of candy. That Dr Nemur is a grouch. Dr Strauss says I can have it
back after the operashun. You cant eat befor a operashun ...
progress report 6-Mar 15
The operashun dint hurt. He did it while I was sleeping. They took off the
bandijis from my eyes and my head today so I can make a PROGRESS REPORT.
Dr Nemur who looked at some of my other ones says I spell PROGRESS wrong
and he told me how to spell it and REPORT too. I got to try and remember that.
I have a very bad memary for spelling. Dr Strauss says its ok to tell about
all the things that happin to me but he says I shoud tell more about what I
feel and what I think. When I told him I dont know how to think he said try.
All the time when the bandijis were on my eyes I tryed to think. Nothing
happened. I dont know what to think about. Maybe if I ask him he will tell
me how I can think now that 1m suppose to get smart. What do smart people
think about. Fancy things I suppose. I wish I knew some fancy things alredy.
progress report 7-mar 19
Nothing is happining. I had lots of tests and different kinds of races with
Algernon. I hate that mouse. He always beats me. Dr Strauss said I got to play
those games. And he said some time I got to take those tests over again. Thse
inkblots are stupid. And those pictures are stupid too. I like to draw a picture
of a man and a woman but I wont make up lies about people.
I got a headache from trying to think so much. I that Dr Strauss was my
frend but he dont help me. He dont tell me what to think or when III get smart.
Miss Kinnian dint come to see me. I think writing these progress reports are
stupid too.
progress report 8-Mar 23
1m going back to work at the factery. They said it was better I shud go back
to work but I cant tell anyone what the operashun was for and I have to come
to the hospitil for an hour evry night after work. They are gonna pay me many
every month for lerning to be smart.
1m glad 1m going back to work because I miss my job and all my frends
and all the fun we have there.
Dr Strauss says I shud keep writing things down but I dont have to do
it every day just when I think of something or something speshul happins. He
says dont get discoridged because it takes time and it happins slow. He says
it took a long time with Algernon before he got 3 times smarter then he was
before. Thats why Algernon beats me all the time because he had that opera·
shun too. That makes me feel better. I coud probly do that amazed faster than
a reglar mouse. Maybe some day III beat Algernon. Boy that would be some·
thing. So far Algernon looks like he mite be smart perminent.
Mar 25 (I dont have to write PROGRESS REPORT on top any more just when
I hand it in once a week for Dr Nemur to read. I just have to put the date on.
That saves time)
We had a lot of fun at the factery today. Joe Carp said hey look where
Charlie had his operashun what did they do Charlie put some brains in. I was
going to tell him but I remembered Dr Strauss said no. Then Frank Reilly said
what did you do Charlie forget your key and open your door the hard way.
That made me laft. Their really my friends and they like me.
Sometimes somebody will say hey look at Joe or Frank or George he
really pulled a Charlie Gordon. I dont know why they say that but they always
laft. This morning Amos Borg who is the 4 man at Donnegans used my name
when he shouted at Ernie the office boy. Ernie lost a packige. He said Ernie
for god sake what are you trying to be a Charlie Gordon. I dont understand
why he said that. I never lost any packiges.
Mar 28 Dr Strauss came to my room tonight to see why I dint come in like
I was suppose to. I told him I dont like to race with Algernon any more. He
said I dont have to for a while but I shud come in. He had a present for me
only it wasnt a present but just for lend. I that it was a little television but it
wasnt. He said I got to turn it on when I go to sleep. I said your kidding why
shud I turn it on when 1m going to sleep. Who ever herd of a thing like that.
But he said if I want to get smart I got to do what he says. I told him I dint
think I was going to get smart and he put his hand on my sholder and said
Charlie you dont know it yet but your getting smarter all the time. You wont
notice for a while. I think he was just being nice to make me feel good because
I dont look any smarter.
Oh yes I almost forgot. I asked him when I can go back to the class at
Miss Kinnians school. He said I wont go their. He said that soon Miss Kinnian
will come to the hospitil to start and teach me speshul. I was mad at her for
not comming to see me when I got the operashun but I like her so maybe we
will be frends again .
Mar 29 That crazy TV kept me up all night. How can I sleep with something
yelling crazy things all night in my ears. And the nutty pictures. Wow. I dont
know what it says when 1m up so how am I going to know when 1m sleeping.
Dr Strauss says its ok. He says my brains are leming when I sleep and
that will help me when Miss Kinnian starts my lessons in the hospitl (only I
found out it isnt a hospitil its a labatory). I think its all crazy. If you can get
smart when your sleeping why do people go to school. That thing I dont think
will work. I use to watch the late show and the late late show on TV all the
time and it never made me smart. Maybe you have to sleep while you watch
it.
PROGRESS REPORT 9-April 3
Dr Strauss showed me how to keep the TV turned low so now I can sleep. I
dont hear a thing. And I still dont understand what it says. A few times I play
it over in the morning to find out what I lerned when I was sleeping and I dont
think so. Miss Kinnian says Maybe its another langwidge or something. But
most times it sounds American. It talks so fast faster then even Miss Gold who
was my teacher in 6 grade and I remember she talked so fast I couldnt understand
her.
I told Dr Strauss what good is it to get smart in my sleep. I want to be
smart when 1m awake. He says its the same thing and I have two minds.
Theres the subconscious and the conscious (thats how you spell it). And one
dont tell the other one what its doing. They dont even talk to each other. Thats
why I dream. And boy have I been having crazy dreams. Wow. Ever since that
night TV. The late late late late late show.
I forgot to ask him if it was only me or if everybody had those two minds.
(I just looked up the word in the dictionary Dr Strauss gave me. The
word is subconscious. adj. Of the nature of mental operations yet not present
in consciousness; as, subconscious conflict of desires.) Theres more but I still
don't know what it means. This isnt a very good dictionary for dumb people
like me.
Anyway the headache is from the party. My frends from the factery Joe
Carp and Frank Reilly invited me to go with them to Muggsys Saloon for some
drinks. I dont like to drink but they said we will have lots of fun. I had a good
time.
Joe Carp said I shoud show the girls how I mop out the toilet in the
factory and he got me a mop. I showed them and everyone laffed when I told
that Mr Donnegan said I was the best janiter he ever had because I like my
job and do it good and never come late or miss a day except for my operashun.
I said Miss Kinnian always said Charlie be proud of your job because
you do it good.
Everybody laffed and we had a good time and they gave me lots of drinks
and Joe said Charlie is a card when hes potted. I dont know what that means
but everybody likes me and we have fun. I cant wait to be smart like my best
frends Joe Carp and Frank Reilly.
I donl remember how the party was over but I think I went out to buy
a newspaper and coffe for Joe and Frank and when I came back there was
no one their. I looked for them all over till late. Then I dont remember so good
but I think I got sleepy or sick. A nice cop brot me back home. Thats what
my landlady Mrs Flynn says.
But I got a headache and a big lump on my head and black and blue all
over. I think maybe I fell but Joe Carp says it was the cop they beat up drunks
some times. I don't think so. Miss Kinnian says cops are to help people.
Anyway I got a bad headache and 1m sick and hurt all over. I dont think III
drink anymore.
April6 I beat Algernon! I dint even know I beat him until Burt the tester told
me. Then the second time I lost because I got so exited I fell off the chair
before I finished. But after that I beat him 8 more times. I must be getting
smart to beat a srnart mouse like Algernon. But I dont feel smarter.
I wanted to race Algernon some more but Burt said thats enough for one
day. They let me hold him for a minit. Hes not so bad. Hes soft like a ball of
cotton. He blinks and when he opens his eyes their black and pink on the eges.
I said can I feed him because I felt bad to beat him and I wanted to be
nice and make frends. Burt said no Algernon is a very specshul mouse with
an operashun like mine, and he was the first of all the animals to stay smart
so long. He told me Algernon is so smart that every day he has to solve a test
to get his food. Its a thing like a lock on a door that changes every time
Algernon goes in to eat so he has to Iern something new to get his food. That
made me sad because if he coudnt lern he woud be hungry.
I dont think its right to make you pass a test to eat. How woud Dr Nemur
like it to have to pass a test every time he wants to eat. I think III be frends
with Algernon.
April 9 Tonight after work Miss Kinnian was at the laboratory. She looked
like she was glad to see me but scared. I told her dont worry Miss Kinnian
1m not smart yet and she laffed. She said I have confidence in you Charlie the
way you struggled so hard to read and right better than all the others. At werst
you will have it for a littel wile and your doing somthing for sience.
We are reading a very hard book. I never read such a hard book before.
Its called Robinson Crusoe about a man who gets merooned on a dessert
Iland. Hes smart and figers out all kinds of things so he can have a house and
food and hes a good swimmer. Only I feel sorry because hes all alone and has
no frends. But I think their must be somebody else on the iland because theres
a picture with his funny umbrella looking at footprints. 1 hope he gets a frend
and not be lonly.
April 10 Miss Kinnian teaches me to spell better. She says look at a word and
close your eyes and say it over and over until you remember. 1 have lots of
truble with through that you say threw and enough and tough that you dont
say enew and tew. You got to say enuff and tuff. Thats how I use to write it
before 1 started to get smart. 1m confused but Miss Kinnian says theres no
reason in spelling.
Apr 14 Finished Robinson Crusoe. 1 want to find out more about what
happens to him but Miss Kinnian says thats all there is. Why
Apr 15 Miss Kinnian says 1m leming fast. She read some of the Progress
Reports and she looked at me kind of funny. She says 1m a fine person and
III show them all. 1 asked her why. She said never mind but I shoudnt feel
bad if I find out that everybody isnt nice like I think. She said for a person
who god gave so little to you done more then a lot of people with brains they
never even used. 1 said all my frends are smart people but there good. They
like me and they never did anything that wasnt nice. Then she got something
in her eye and she had to run out to the ladys room.
Apr 16 Today, I lerned, the comma} this is a comma (,) a period, with a tail,
Miss Kinnian, says its importent, because} it makes writing, better, she said,
somebody, coud lose, a lot of money, if a comma, isnt, in the, right place, I dont
have, any money, and I dont see, how a comma, keeps you, from losing it,
But she says, everybody, uses commas, so III use, them too,
III
Apr 17 I used the comma wrong. Its punctuation. Miss Kinnian told me to
look up long words in the dictionary to lern to spell them. I said whats the
difference if you can read it anyway. She said its part of your education so
now on III look up all the words 1m not sure how to spell. It takes a long time
to write that way but I think 1m remembering. I only have to look up once
and after that I get it right. Anyway thats how come I got the word punctuation
right. (Its that way in the dictionary). Miss Kinnian says a period is
punctuation too, and there are lots of other marks to lern. I told her I thot
all the periods had to have tails but she said no.
You got to mix them up, she showed? me" how. to mix! them(up,. and
now; I can! mix up all kinds" of punctuation, in! my writing? There, are lots!
of rules? to lern; but 1m gettin'g them in my head.
One thing I? like about, Dear Miss Kinnian: (thats the way it goes in a
business letter if I ever go into business) is she, always gives me' a reason"
when-I ask. She's a gen'ius! I wish! I cou'd be smart" like, her;
(Punctuation, is; fun!)
April18 What a dope I am! I didn't even understand what she was talking
about. I read the grammar book last night and it explanes the whole thing.
Then I saw it was the same way as Miss Kinnian was trying to tell me, but
I didn't get it. I got up in the middle of the night, and the whole thing straightened
out in my mind.
Miss Kinnian said that the TV working in my sleep helped out. She said
I reached a plateau. Thats like the flat top of a hill.
After I figgered out how punctuation worked, I read over all myoid
Progress Reports from the beginning. Boy, did I have crazy spelling and
punctuation! I told Miss Kinnian I ought to go over the pages and fix all the
mistakes but she said, "No, Charlie, Dr. Nemur wants them just as they are.
That's why he let you keep them after they were photostated, to see your own
progress. You're coming along fast, Charlie."
That made me feel good. After the lesson I went down and played with
Algernon. We don't race any more.
April 20 I feel sick inside. Not sick like for a doctor, but inside my chest it
feels empty like getting punched and a heartburn at the same time.
I wasn't going to write about it, but I guess I got to, because it's important.
Today was the first time I ever stayed home from work.
Last night Joe Carp and Frank Reilly invited me to a party. There were
lots of girls and some men from the factory. I remembered how sick I got last
time I drank too much, so I told Joe I didn't want anything to drink. He gave
me a plain Coke instead. It ta'sted funny, but I thought it was just a bad taste
in my mouth.
We had a lot of fun for a while. Joe said I should dance with Ellen and
she would teach me the steps. I fell a few times and I couldn't understand why
because no one else was dancing besides Ellen and me. And all the time I was
tripping because somebody's foot was always sticking out.
Then when I got up I saw the look on Joe's face and it gave me a funny
feeling in my stomack. "He's a scream," one of the girls said. Everybody was
laughing.
Frank said, "I ain't laughed so much since we sent him off for the
newspaper that night at Muggsy's and ditched him."
"Look at him. His face is red."
"He's blushing. Charlie is blushing."
"Hey, Ellen, what'd you do to Charlie? I never saw him act like that
before."
I didn't know what to do or where to turn. Everyone was looking at me
and laughing and I felt naked. I wanted to hide myself. I ran out into the street
and I threw up. Then I walked home. It's a funny thing I never knew that Joe
and Frank and the others liked to have me around all the time to make fun
of me.
Now I know what it means when they say "to pull a Charlie Gordon."
I'm ashamed.
PROGRESS REPORT 11
April 21 Still didn't go into the factory. I told Mrs. Flynn my landlady to call
and tell Mr. Donnegan I was sick. Mrs. Flynn looks at me very funny lately
like she's scared of me.
I think it's a good thing about finding out how everybody laughs at me.
I thought about it a lot. It's because I'm so dumb and I don't even know when
I'm doing something dumb. People think it's funny when a dumb person can't
do things the same way they can.
Anyway, now I know I'm getting smarter every day. I know punctuation
and I can spell good. I like to look up all the hard words in the dictionary and
I remember them. I'm reading a lot now, and Miss Kinnian says I read very
fast. Sometimes I even understand what I'm reading about, and it stays in my
mind. There are times when I can close my eyes and think of a page and it
all comes back like a picture.
Besides history, geography, and arithmetic, Miss Kinnian said I should
start to learn a few foreign languages. Dr. Strauss gave me some more tapes
to play while I sleep. I still don't understand how that conscious and unconscious
mind works, but Dr. Strauss says not to worry yet. He asked me to
promise that when I start learning college subjects next week I wouldn't read
any books on psychology-that is, until he gives me permission.
I feel a lot better today, but I guess I'm still a little angry that all the time
people were laughing and making fun of me because I wasn't so smart. When
I become intelligent like Dr. Strauss says, with three times my LO. of 68, then
maybe I'll be like everyone else and people will like me and be friendly.
I'm not sure what an LO. is. Dr. Nemur said it was something that
measured how intelligent you were-like a scale in the drugstore weighs
pounds. But Dr. Strauss had a big argument with him and said an LO. didn't
weigh intelligence at all. He said an LO. showed how much intelligence you
could get, like the numbers on the outside of a measuring cup. You still had
to fill the cup up with stuff.
Then when I asked Burt, who gives me my intelligence tests and works
with Algernon, he said that both of them were wrong (only I had to promise
not to tell them he said so). Burt says that the 1.0. measures a lot of different
things including some of the things you learned already, and it really isn't any
good at all.
So I still don't know what LO. is except that mine is going to be over 200
soon. I didn't want to say anything, but I don't see how if they don't know
what it is, or where it is-I don't see how they know how much of it you've
got.
Dr. Nemur says I have to take a Rorshach Test tomorrow. I wonder what
that is.
April 22 I found out what a Rorshach is. It's the test I took before the
operation-the one with the inkblots on the pieces of cardboard. The man
who gave me the test was the same one.
I was scared to death of those inkblots. I knew he was going to ask me
to find the pictures and I knew I wouldn't be able to. I was thinking to myself,
if only there was some way of knowing what kind of pictures were hidden
there. Maybe there weren't any pictures at all. Maybe it was just a trick to see
if I was dumb enough to look for something that wasn't there. Just thinking
about that made me sore at him.
"All right, Charlie," he said, "you've seen these cards before, remember?"
"Of course I remember."
The way I said it, he knew the test still doesn't make sense to me. It seems to me that anyone could
make up lies about things that they didn't really see. How could he know I
wasn't making a fool of him by mentioning things that I didn't really imagine?
Maybe I'll understand it when Dr. Strauss lets me read up on psychology.
April25 I figured out a new way to line up the machines in the factory, and
Mr. Donnegan says it will save him ten thousand dollars a year in labor and
increased production. He gave me a twenty-five-dollar bonus.
I wanted to take Joe Carp and Frank Reilly out to lunch to celebrate, but
Joe said he had to buy some things for his wife, and Frank said he was
meeting his cousin for lunch. I guess it'll take a little time for them to get used
to the changes in me. Everybody seems to be frightened of me. When I went
over to Amos Borg and tapped him on the shoulder, he jumped up in the
air.
People don't talk to me much any more or kid around the way they used
to. It makes the job kind of lonely.
April 27 I got up the nerve today to ask Miss Kinnian to have dinner with
me tomorrow night to celebrate my bonus.
At first she wasn't sure it was right, but I asked Dr. Strauss and he said
it was okay. Dr. Strauss and Dr. Nemur don't seem to be getting along so well.
They're arguing all the time. This evening when I came in to ask Dr. Strauss
about having dinner with Miss Kinnian, I heard them shouting. Dr. Nemur
was saying that it was his experiment and his research, and Dr. Strauss was
shouting back that he contributed just as much, because he found me through
Miss Kinnian and he performed the operation. Dr. Strauss said that someday
thousands of neurosurgeons might be using his technique all over the
world.
Dr. Nemur wanted to publish the results of the experiment at the end of
this month. Dr. Strauss wanted to wait a while longer to be sure. Dr. Strauss
said that Dr. Nemur was more interested in the Chair of Psychology at Princeton
than he was in the experiment. Dr. Nemur said that Dr. Strauss was
nothing but an opportunist who was trying to ride to glory on his coattails.
When I left afterwards, I found myself trembling. I don't know why for
sure, but it was as if I'd seen both men clearly for the first time. I remember
hearing Burt say that Dr. Nemur had a shrew of a wife who was pushing him
all the time to get things published so that he could become famous. Burt said
that the dream of her life was to have a big-shot husband.
Was Dr. Strauss really trying to ride on his coattails?
April28 I don't understand why I never noticed how beautiful Miss Kinnian
really is. She has brown eyes and feathery brown hair that comes to the top
of her neck. She's only thirty-four! I think from the beginning I had the feeling
that she was an unreachable genius-and very, very old. Now, every time I
see her she grows younger and more lovely.
We had dinner and a long talk. When she said that I was coming along
so fast that soon I'd be leaving her behind, I laughed.
"It's true, Charlie. You're already a better reader that I am. You can read
a whole page at a glance while I can take in only a few lines at a time. And
you remember every single thing you read. I'm lucky if I can recall the main
thoughts and the general meaning."
"I don't feel intelligent. There are so many things I don't understand."
She took out a cigarette and I lit it for her. "You've got to be a little
patient. You're accomplishing in days and weeks what it takes normal people
to do in half a lifetime. That's what makes it so amazing. You're like a giant
sponge now, soaking things in. Facts, figures, general knowledge. And soon
you'll begin to connect them, too. You'll see how the different branches of
learning are related. There are many levels, Charlie, like steps on a giant
ladder that take you up higher and higher to see more and more of the world
around you.
"I can see only a little bit of that, Charlie, and I won't go much higher
than I am now, but you'll keep climbing up and up, and see more and more,
and each step will open new worlds that you never even knew existed." She
frowned. "I hope ... I just hope to God-"
"What?"
"Never mind, Charles. Ijust hope I wasn't wrong to advise you to go into
this in the first place."
I laughed. "How could that be? It worked, didn't it? Even Algernon is still
smart."
We sat there silently for a while and I knew what she was thinking about
as she watched me toying with the chain of my rabbit's foot and my keys. I
didn't want to think of that possibility any more than elderly people want to
think of death. I knew that this was only the beginning. I knew what she
meant about levels because I'd seen some of them already. The thought of
leaving her behind made me sad.
I'm in love with Miss Kinnian.
PROGRESS REPORT 12
April30 I've quit my job with Donnegan's Plastic Box Company. Mr. Donnegan
insisted that it would be better for all concerned if I left. What did I do
to make them hate me so?
The first I knew of it was when Mr. Donnegan showed me the petition.
Eight hundred and forty names, everyone connected with the factory, except
Fanny Girden. Scanning the list quickly, I saw at once that hers was the only
missing name. All the rest demanded that I be fired.
Joe Carp and Frank Reilly wouldn't talk to me about it. No one else
would either, except Fanny. She was one of the few people I'd known who set
her mind to something and believed it no matter what the rest of the world
proved, said, or did-and Fanny did not believe that I should have been fired.
She had been against the petition on principle and despite the pressure and
threats she'd held out.
"Which don't mean to say," she remarked, "that I don't think there's
something mighty strange about you, Charlie. Them changes. I don't know.
You used to be a good, dependable, ordinary man-not too bright maybe, but
honest. Who knows what you done to yourself to get so smart all of a sudden.
Like everybody around here's been saying, Charlie, it's not right."
"But how can you say that, Fanny? What's wrong with a man becoming
intelligent and wanting to acquire knowledge and understanding of the world
around him?"
She stared down at her work and I turned to leave. Without looking at
me, she said: "It was evil when Eve listened to the snake and ate from the tree
of knowledge. It was evil when she saw that she was naked. If not for that
none of us would ever have to grow old and sick, and die."
Once again now I have the feeling of shame burning inside me. This
intelligence has driven a wedge between me and all the people I once knew
and loved. Before, they laughed at me and despised me for my ignorance and
dullness; now, they hate me for my knowledge and understanding. What in
God's name do they want of me?
They've driven me out of the factory. Now I'm more alone than ever
before ...
May 15 Dr. Strauss is very angry at me for not having written any progress
reports in two weeks. He's justified because the lab is now paying me a regular
salary. I told him I was too busy thinking and reading. When I pointed out
that writing was such a slow process that it made me impatient with my poor
handwriting, he suggested that I learn to type. It's much easier to write now
because I can type nearly seventy-five words a minute. Dr. Strauss continually
reminds me of the need to speak and write simply so that people will be able
to understand me.
I'll try to review all the things that happened to me during the last two
weeks. Algernon and I were presented to the American Psychological Association
sitting in convention with the World Psychological Association last Tuesday.
We created quite a sensation. Dr. Nemur and Dr. Strauss were proud of
us.
I suspect that Dr. Nemur, who is sixty-ten years older than Dr. Strauss
-finds it necessary to see tangible results of his work. Undoubtedly the result
of pressure by Mrs. Nemur.
Contrary to my earlier impressions of him, I realize that Dr. Nemur is
not at all a genius. He has a very good mind, but it struggles under the spectre
of self-doubt. He wants people to take him for a genius. Therefore, it is
important for him to feel that his work is accepted by the world. I believe that
Dr. Nemur was afraid of further delay because he worried that someone else
might make a discovery along these lines and take the credit from him.
Dr. Strauss on the other hand might be called a genius, although I feel
that his areas of knowledge are too limited. He was educated in the tradition
of narrow specialization; the broader aspects of background were neglected
far more than necessary-even for a neurosurgeon.
I was shocked to learn that the only ancient languages he could read
were Latin, Greek, and Hebrew, and that he knows almost nothing of mathematics beyond the elementary levels of the calculus of variations. When he
admitted this to me, I found myself almost annoyed. It was as if he'd hidden
this part of himself in order to deceive me, pretending-as do many people
I've discovered-to be what he is not. No one I've ever known is what he
appears to be on the surface.
Dr. Nemur appears to be uncomfortable around me. Sometimes when
I try to talk to him, he just looks at me strangely and turns away. I was angry
at first when Dr. Strauss told me I was giving Dr. Nemur an inferiority
complex. I thought he was mocking me and I'm oversensitive at being made
fun of.
How was I to know that a highly respected psychoexperimentalist like
Nemur was unacquainted with Hindustani and Chinese? It's absurd when you
consider the work that is being done in India and China today in the very field
of his study.
I asked Dr. Strauss how Nemur could refute Rahajamati's attack on his
method and results if Nemur couldn't even read them in the first place. That
strange look on Dr. Strauss' face can mean only one of two things. Either he
doesn't want to tell Nemur what they're saying in India, or else-and this
worries me-Dr. Strauss doesn't know either. I must be careful to speak and
write clearly and simply so that people won't laugh.
May J8 I am very disturbed. I saw Miss Kinnian last night for the first time
in over a week. I tried to avoid all discussions of intellectual concepts and to
keep the conversation on a simple, everyday level, but she just stared at me
blankly and asked me what I meant about the mathematical variance equivalent
in Dorbermann's Fifth Concerto. .IJ
When I tried to explain she stopped me and laughed. I guess I got angry,
but I suspect I'm approaching her on the wrong level. No matter w~at I try
to discuss with her, I am unable to communicate. I must review Vrostadt's
equations on Levels of Semantic Progression. I find that I don't communicate
with people much any more. Thank God for books and music and things I can
think about. I am alone in my apartment at Mrs. Flynn's boardinghouse most
of the time and seldom speak to anyone.
May 20 I would not have noticed the new dishwasher, a boy of about sixteen,
at the corner diner where I take my evening meals if not for the incident of
the broken dishes.
They crashed to the floor, shattering and sending bits of white china
under the tables. The boy stood there, dazed and frightened, holding the
empty tray in his hand. The whistles and catcalls from the customers (the
cries of "hey, there go the profits!" ... "Mazeltov!" ... and "well, he didn't work
here very long ..." which invariably seems to follow the breaking of glass or
dishware in a public restaurant) all seemed to confuse him..'
When the owner carne to see what the excitement was about, the boy
cowered as if he expected to be struck and threw up his anTIS as if to ward
off the blow.
"All right! All right, you dope," shouted the owner, "don't just stand there! Get the broom and sweep that mess up. A broom. , . a broom, you idiot! It's
in the kitchen. Sweep up all the pieces."
The boy saw that he was not going to be punished. His frightened expreshe
sion disappeared and he smiled and hummed as he came back with the broom
to sweep the floor. A few of the rowdier customers kept up the remarks,
amusing themselves at his expense.
"Here, sonny, over here there's a nice piece behind you ..."
"C'mon, do it again .. ,"
"He's not so dumb. It's easier to break 'em than to wash 'em ..."
As his vacant eyes moved across the crowd of amused onlookers, he
slowly mirrored their smiles and finally broke into an uncertain grin at the
joke which he obviously did not understand.
I felt sick inside as I looked at his dull, vacuous smile, the wide, bright
eyes of a child, uncertain but eager to please. They were laughing at him
because he was mentally retarded.
And I had been laughing at him too.
Suddenly, I was furious at myself and all those who were smirking at
him. I jumped up and shouted, "Shut up! Leave him alone! It's not his fault
he can't understand! He can't help what he is! But for God's sake ... he's still
a human being!"
The room grew silent. I cursed myself for losing control and creating a
scene. I tried not to look at the boy as I paid my check and walked out without
touching my food. I felt ashamed for both of us.
How strange it is that people of honest feelings and sensibility, who
would not take advantage of a man born without arms or legs or eyes-how
such people think nothing of abusing a man born with low intelligence. It
infuriated me to think that not too long ago I, like this boy, had foolishly
played the clown.
And I had almost forgotten.
I'd hidden the picture of the old Charlie Gordon from myself because
now that I was intelligent it was something that had to be pushed out of my
mind. But today in looking at that boy, for the first time I saw what I had been.
I was just like him!
Only a short time ago, I learned that people laughed at me. Now I can
see that unknowingly I joined with them in laughing at myself. That hurts
f most of all.
I have often reread my progress reports and seen the illiteracy, the
childish naIvete, the mind of low intelligence peering from a dark room,
through the keyhole, at the dazzling light outside. I see that even in my
dullness I knew that I was inferior, and that other people had something
I lacked-something denied me. In my mental blindness, I thought that it
was somehow connected with the ability to read and write, and I was
sure that if I could get those skills I would automatically have intelligence
too.
Even a feeble-minded man wants to be like other men.
A child may not know how to feed itself, or what to eat, yet it knows of
hunger.
This then is what I was like, I never knew. Even with my gift of intellec i.,' tual awareness, I never really knew.
This day was good for me. Seeing the past more clearly, I have decided
to use my knowledge and skills to work in the field of increasing human
intelligence levels. Who is better equipped for this work? Who else has lived
in both worlds? These are my people. Let me use my gift to do something for
them.
Tomorrow, I will discuss with Dr. Strauss the manner in which I can
work in this area. I may be able to help him work out the problems of
widespread use of the technique which was used on me. I have several good
ideas of my own.
There is so much that might be done with this technique. If I could be
made into a genius, what about thousands of others like myself? What fantastic
levels might be achieved by using this technique on normal people? On
geniuses?
There are so many doors to open. I am impatient to begin.
PROGRESS REPORT 13
May 23 It happened today. Algernon bit me. I visited the lab to see him as
I do occasionally, and when I took him out of his cage, he snapped at my
hand. I put him back and watched him for a while. He was unusually disturbed
and vicious.
May 24 Burt, who is in charge of the experimental animals, tells me that
Algernon is changing. He is less co-operative; he refuses to run the maze any
more; general motivation has decreased. And he hasn't been eating. Everyone
is upset about what this may mean.
May 25 They've been feeding Algernon, who now refuses to work the shifting-lock
problem. Everyone identifies me with Algernon. In a way we're both
the first of our kind. They're all pretending that Algernon's behavior is not
necessarily significant for me. But it's hard to hide the fact that some of the
other animals who were used in this experiment are showing strange behavlOr.
Dr. Strauss and Dr. Nemur have asked me not to come to the lab any
more. I know what they're thinking but I can't accept it. I am going ahead with
my plans to carry their research forward. With all due respect to both of these
fine scientists, I am well aware of their limitations. If there is an answer, I'll
have to find it out for myself. Suddenly, time has become very important to
me.
May 29 I have been given a lab of my own and permission to go ahead with
the research. I'm on to something. Working day and night. I've had a cot
moved into the lab. Most of my writing time is spent on the notes which I keep
in a separate folder, but from time to time I feel it necessary to put down my
moods and my thoughts out of sheer habit.
I find the calculus of intelligence to be a fascinating study. Here is the place for the application of all the knowledge I have acquired. In a sense it's
the problem I've been concerned with all my life.
May 31 Dr. Strauss thinks I'm working too hard. Dr. Nemur says I'm trying
or to cram a lifetime of research and thought into a few weeks. I know I should
rest, but I'm driven on by something inside that won't let me stop. I've got to
m find the reason for the sharp regression in Algernon. I've got to know if and
of when it will happen to me.
June 4
LETTER TO DR. STRAUSS (copy)
Dear Dr. Strauss:
Under separate cover I am sending you a copy of my report entitled,
"The Algernon-Gordon Effect: A Study of Structure and Function of Increased
Intelligence," which I would like to have you read and have published.
As you see, my experiments are completed. I have included in my
report all of my formulae, as well as mathematical analysis in the appendix.
Of course, these should be verified.
Because of its importance to both you and Dr. Nemur (and need I say
to myself, too?) I have checked and rechecked my results a dozen times in
the hope of finding an error. I am sorry to say the results must stand. Yet
for the sake of science, I am grateful for the little bit that I here add to the
it knowledge of the function of the human mind and of the laws governing
the artificial increase of human intelligence.
I recall your once saying to me that an experimental failure or the
disproving of a theory was as important to the advancement of learning as
a success would be. I know now that this is true. I am sorry, however, that
my own contribution to the field must rest upon the ashes of the work of
two men I regard so highly.
Yours truly,
Charles Gordon
June 5 I must not become emotional. The facts and the results of my experiments are clear, and the more sensational aspects of my own rapid climb
e cannot obscure the fact that the tripling of intelligence by the surgical tech
.1 nique developed by Drs. Strauss and Nemur must be viewed as having little
) or no practical applicability (at the present time) to the increase of human
intelligence.
As I review the records and data on Algernon, I see that although he is
still in his physical infancy, he has regressed mentally. Motor activity is
impaired; there is a general reduction of glandular activity; there is an ac
) celerated loss of co-ordination.
There are also strong indications of progressive amnesia.
As will be seen by my report, these and other physical and mental
deterioration syndromes can be predicted with statistically significant results
by the application of my formula.
The surgical stimulus to which we were both subjected has resulted in an intensification and acceleration of all mental processes. The unforeseen
development, which I have taken the liberty of calling the Algernon-Gordon
Effect, is the logical extension of the entire intelligence speed-up. The hypothesis
here proven may be described simply in the following terms: Artifically
increased intelligence deteriorates at a rate of time directly proportional to
the quantity of the increase.
I feel that this, in itself, is an important discovery.
As long as I am able to write, I will continue to record my thoughts in
these progress reports. It is one of my few pleasures. However, by all indications,
my own mental deterioration will be very rapid.
I have already begun to notice signs of emotional instability and forgetfulness,
the first symptoms of the burnout.
June 10 Deterioration progressing. I have become absent-minded. Algernon
died two days ago. Dissection shows my predictions were right. His brain had
decreased in weight and there was a general smoothing out of cerebral convolutions
as well as a deepening and broadening of brain fissures.
I guess the same thing is or will soon be happening to me. Now that it's
definite, I don't want it to happen.
I put Algernon's body in a cheese box and buried him in the back yard.
I cried.
June 15 Dr. Strauss came to see me again. I wouldn't open the door and I
told him to go away. I want to be left to myself. I have become touchy and
irritable. I feel the darkness closing in. It's hard to throw off thoughts of
suicide. I keep telling myself how important this introspective jour·nal will be.
It's a strange sensation to pick up a book that you've read and enjoyed
just a few months ago and discover that you don't remember it. I remembered
how great I thought John Milton was, but when I picked up Paradise Lost I
couldn't understand it at all. I got so angry I threw the book across the room.
I've got to try to hold on to some of it. Some of the things I've learned.
Oh, God, please don't take it all away.
June 19 Sometimes, at night, I go out for a walk. Last night I couldn't
remember where I lived. A policeman took me home. I have the strange
feeling that this has all happened to me before-a long time ago. I keep telling
myself I'm the only person in the world who can describe what's happening
to me.
June 21 Why can't I remember? I've got to fight. I lie in bed for days and I
don't know who or where I am. Then it all comes back to me in a flash. Fugues
of amnesia. Symptoms of senility-second childhood. I can watch them coming
on. It's so cruelly logical. I learned so much and so fast. Now my mind
is deteriorating rapidly. I won't let it happen. I'll fight it. I can't help thinking
of the boy in the restaurant, the blank expression, the silly smile, the people
laughing at him. No-please-not that again ...
June 22 I'm forgetting things that I learned recently. It seems to be following
the classic pattern-the last things learned are the first things forgotten. Or
is that the pattern? I'd better look it up again ....
I reread my paper on the Algernon-Gordon Effect and I get the strange
feeling that it was written by someone else. There are parts I don't even
understand.
Motor activity impaired. I keep tripping over things, and it becomes
increasingly difficult to type.
June 23 I've given up using the typewriter completely. My co-ordination is
bad. I feel that I'm moving slower and slower. Had a terrible shock today. I
picked up a copy of an article I used in my research, Krueger's Uber psychische
Ganzheit, to see if it would help me understand what I had done. First
I thought there was something wrong with my eyes. Then I realized I could
no longer read German. I tested myself in other languages. All gone.
June 30 A week since I dared to write again. It's slipping away like sand
through my fingers. Most of the books I have are too hard for me now. I get
angry with them because I know that I read and understood them just a few
weeks ago.
I keep telling myself I must keep writing these reports so that somebody
will know what is happening to me. But it gets harder to form the words and
remember spellings. I have to look up even simple words in the dictionary
now and it makes me impatient with myself.
Dr. Strauss comes around almost every day, but I told him I wouldn't
see or speak to anybody. He feels guilty. They all do. But I don't blame anyone.
I knew what might happen. But how it hurts.
July 7 I don't know where the week went. Todays Sunday I know because
I can see through my window people going to church. I think I stayed in bed
all week but I remember Mrs. Flynn bringing food to me a few times. I keep
saying over and over Ive got to do something but then I forget or maybe its
just easier not to do what I say 1m going to do.
I think of my mother and father a lot these days. I found a picture of
them with me taken at a beach. My father has a big ball under his arm and
my mother is holding me by the hand. I dont remember them the way they
are in the picture. All I remember is my father drunk most of the time and
arguing with mom about money.
He never shaved much and he used to scratch my face when he hugged
me. My mother said he died but Cousin Miltie said he heard his mom and
dad say that my father ran away with another woman. When I asked my
mother she slapped my face and said my father was dead. I dont think I
ever found out which was true but 1 don't care much. (He said he was going
to take me to see cows on a farm once but he never did. He never kept his
promises ...)
July 10 My landlady Mrs Flynn is very worried about me. She says the way
1 lay around all day and dont do anything 1 remind her of her son before she
threw him out of the house. She said she doesn't like loafers. If 1m sick its one
thing, but if 1m a loafer thats another thing and she wont have it. 1 told her
1 think 1m sick.
I try to read a little bit every day, mostly stories, but sometimes 1 have
to read the same thing over and over again because 1 dont know what it
means. And its hard to write. I know I should look up all the words in the
dictionary but its so hard and 1m so tired all the time.
Then I got the idea that I would only use the easy words instead of the
long hard ones. That saves time. 1 put flowers on Algernons grave about once
a week. Mrs Flynn thinks 1m crazy to put flowers on a mouses grave but 1 told
her that Algernon was special.
July 14 Its sunday again. I dont have anything to do to keep me busy now
because my television set is broke and 1 dont have any money to get it fixed.
(I think 1 lost this months check from the lab. I dont remember)
I get awful headaches and asperin doesnt help me much. Mrs Flynn
knows 1m really sick and she feels very sorry for me. Shes a wonderful
woman whenever someone is sick.
July 22 Mrs Flynn called a strange doctor to see me. She was afraid I was
going to die. I told the doctor I wasnt too sick and that I only forget sometimes.
He asked me did I have any friends or relatives and I said np 1 dont
have any. I told him I had a friend called Algernon once but he was a mouse
and we used to run races together. He looked at me kind of funny like he
thought 1 was crazy.
He smiled when I told him I used to be a genius. He talked to me like
I was a baby and he winked at Mrs Flynn. I got mad and chased him out
because he was making fun of me the way they all used to.
July 24 I have no more money and Mrs Flynn says I got to go to work
somewhere and pay the rent because I havent paid for over two months. 1
dont know any work but the job I used to have at Donnegans Plastic Box
Company. I dont want to go back there because they all knew me when I was
smart and maybe theylllaugh at me. But I dont know what else to do to get
money.
July 25 I was looking at some of myoid progress reports and its very funny
but I cant read what I wrote. I can make out some of the words but they dont
make sense.
Miss Kinnian came to the door but I said go away I dont want to see you.
She cried and I cried too but I wouldnt let her in because I didnt want her
to laugh at me. 1 told her 1 didn't like her any more. I told her 1 didnt want
to be smart any more. Thats not true. I still love her and I still want to be smart
but I had to say that so shed go away. She gave Mrs Flynn money to pay the
rent. I dont want that. 1 got to get a job.
Please ... please let me not forget how to read and write ...
July 27 Mr Donnegan was very nice when I came back and asked him for
myoid job of janitor. First he was very suspicious but I told him what happened
to me then he looked very sad and put his hand on my shoulder and
said Charlie Gordon you got guts.
Everybody looked at me when I came downstairs and started working
in the toilet sweeping it out like I used to. I told myself Charlie if they make
fun of you dont get sore because you remember their not so smart as you once
thot they were. And besides they were once your friends and if they laughed
at you that doesnt mean anything because they liked you too.
One of the new men who came to work there after I went away made
a nasty crack he said hey Charlie 1 hear your a very smart fella a real quiz
kid. Say something intelligent. I felt bad but Joe Carp came over and grabbed
him by the shirt and said leave him alone you lousy cracker or III break your
neck. I didnt expect Joe to take my part so I guess hes really my friend.
Later Frank Reilly came over and said Charlie if anybody bothers you
or trys to take advantage you call me or Joe and we will set em straight. I said
thanks Frank and I got choked up so I had to turn around and go into the
supply room so he wouldnt see me cry. Its good to have friends.
July 28 I did a dumb thing today I forgot I wasnt in Miss Kinnians class at
the adult center any more like I use to be. I went in and sat down in myoId
seat in the back of the room and she looked at me funny and she said Charles.
I dint remember she ever called me that before only Charlie so I said hello
Miss Kinnian 1m redy for my lesin today only I lost my reader that we was
using. She startid to cry and run out of the room and everybody looked at me
and I saw they wasnt the same pepul who used to be in my class.
Then all of a suddin I remembered some things about the operashun and
me getting smart and I said holy smoke I reely pulled a Charlie Gordon that
time. I went away before she come back to the room.
Thats why 1m going away from New York for good. I dont want to do
nothing like that agen. 1 dont want Miss Kinnian to feel sorry for me. Evry
body feels sorry at the factery and I dont want that eather so 1m going
someplace where nobody knows that Charlie Gordon was once a genus and
now he cant even reed a book or rite good.
1m taking a cuple of books along and even if I cant reed them III practise
hard and maybe I wont forget every thing 1 lerned. If 1 try reel hard maybe
III be a littel bit smarter then I was before the operashun. 1 got my rabits foot
and my luky penny and maybe they will help me.
If you ever reed this Miss Kinnian dont be sorry for me 1m glad I got
a second chanse to be smart becaus I lerned a lot of things that I never even
new were in this world and 1m grateful that I saw it all for a litte! bit. I dont
know why 1m dumb agen or what I did wrong maybe its becaus I dint try hard
enuff. But if I try and practis very hard maybe III get a littl smarter and know
what all the words are. I remember a littel bit how nice I had a feeling with
the blue book that has the torn cover when I red it. Thats why 1m gonna keep
trying to get smart so I can have that feeling agen. Its a good feeling to know
things and be smart. I wish I had it rite now if I did I would sit down and reed
all the time. Anyway I bet 1m the first dumb person in the world who ever
found out somthing importent for sience. I remember I did somthing but I
dont remember what. So I gess its like I did it for all the dumb pepullike me.
Good-by Miss Kinnian and Dr Strauss and evreybody. And P.S. please
tell Dr Nemur not to be such a grouch when pepul 1aff at him and he woud
have more frends. Its easy to make frends if you let pepul laff at you. 1m going
to have lots of frends where I go.
P.P.S. Please if you get a chanse put some flowrs on Algernons grave in the
back yard ...
DANIEL KEYES
progris riport l-martch 5 1965
Strauss says I shud rite down what I think and evrey thing that
st happins to me from now on. I dont know why but he says its importint Is so they will see if they will use me. I hope they use me. Miss Kinnian says Ie maybe they can make me smart. I want to be smart. My name is Charlie
Id Gordon. I am 37 years old and 2 weeks ago was my brithday. I have nuthing
more to rite now so I will close for today. In
'y progris riport 2-martch 6
in
I had a test today. I think I faled it. and I think that maybe now they wont )f
use me. What happind is a nice young man was in the room and he had some 19
white cards with ink spillled all over them. He sed Charlie what do you see ton
this card. I was very skared even tho I had my rabits foot in my pockit ,/I
because when I was a kid I always faled tests in school and I spillled ink to.
I told him I saw a inkblot. He said yes and it made me feel good. I thot
n that was all but when I got up to go he stopped me. He said now sit down
d Charlie we are not thru yet. Then I dont remember so good but he wan tid me
to say what was in the ink. I dint see nuthing in the ink but he said there was
picturs there other pepul saw some picturs. I coudnt see any picturs. I reely
tryed to see. I held the card close up and then far away. Then I said if 1 had
my glases I coud see better I usally only ware my glases in the movies or TV
but 1 said they are in the closh in the hall. I got them. Then I said let me see
that card agen I bet III find it now.
I tryed hard but I still coudnt find the picturs I only saw the ink. 1 told
him maybe 1 need new glases. He rote somthing down on a paper and I got
skared of faling the test. I told him it was a very nice inkblot with littel points
all around the eges. He looked very sad so that wasnt it. I said please let me
try agen. III get it in a few minits becaus 1m not so fast somtimes. 1m a slow
reeder too in Miss Kinnians class for slow adults but I'm trying very hard.
He gave me a chance with another card that had 2 kinds of ink spilled
on it red and blue.
He was very nice and talked slow like Miss Kinnian does and he explaned
it to me that it was a raw shok. He said pepul see things in the ink.
I said show me where. He said think. I told him I think a inkblot but that
wasnt rite eather. He said what does it remind you-pretend something. 1
closd my eyes for a long time to pretend. I told him I pretend a fowntan pen
with ink leeking all over a table cloth. Then he got up and went out.
1 dont think I passd the raw shok test.
progris report 3-martch 7
Dr Strauss and Dr Nemur say it dont matter about the inkblots. I told them I didnt spill the ink on the cards and I coudnt see anything in the ink. They said
that maybe they will still use me. I said Miss Kinnian never gave me tests like
that one only spelling and reading. They said Miss Kinnian told that I was her
bestist pupil in the adult nite scool becaus I tryed the hardist and I reely
wantid to lern. They said how come you went to the adult nite scool all by
yourself Charlie. How did you find it. I said I askd pepul and sumbody told
me where I shud go to lern to read and spell good. They said why did you want
to. I told them becaus all my life I wantid to be smart and not dumb. But its
very hard to be smart. They said you know it will probly be tempirery. I said
yes. Miss Kinnian told me. I dont care if it herts.
Later I had more crazy tests today. The nice lady who gave it me told
me the name and I asked her how do you spellit so I can rite it in my progris
riport. THEMATIC APPERCEPTION TEST. I dont know the frist 2 words but I know
what test means. You got to pass it or you get bad marks. This test lookd easy
becaus I coud see the picturs. Only this time she dint want me to tell her the
picturs. That mixd me up. I said the man yesterday said I shoud tell him what
I saw in the ink she said that dont make no difrence. She said make up storys
about the pepul in the picturs.
I told her how can you tell storys about pepul you never met. I said why
shud I make up lies. I never tell lies any more becaus I always get caut.
She told me this test and the other one the raw-shok was for getting
personalty. I laffed so hard. I said how can you get that thing from inkblots
and fotos. She got sore and put her picturs away. I dont care. It was siIy. I gess
I faled that test too.
Later some men in white coats took me to a difernt part of the hospitil
and gave me a game to play. It was like a race with a white mouse. They called
the mouse Algernon. Algernon was in a box with a lot of twists and turns like
all-kinds of walls and they gave me a pencil and a paper with lines and lots
of boxes. On one side it said START and on the other end it said FINISH. They
said it was amazed and that Algernon and me had the same amazed to do.
I dint see how we could have the same amazed if Algernon had a box and I
had a paper but I dint say nothing. Anyway there wasnt time because the race
started.
One of the men had a watch he was trying to hide so I woudnt see it so
I tryed not to look and that made me nervus.
Anyway that test made me feel worser than all the others because they
did it over 10 times with difernt amazeds and Algernon won every time. I dint
know that mice were so smart. Maybe thats because Algernon is a white
mouse. Maybe white mice are smarter then other mice.
progris riport 4-Mar 8
Their going to use me! 1m so exited I can hardly write. Dr Nemur and Dr
Strauss had a argament about it first. Dr Nemur was in the office when Dr
Strauss brot me in. Dr Nemur was worryed about using me but Dr Strauss
told him Miss Kinnian rekemmended me the best from all the people who she
was teaching. I like Miss Kinnian becaus shes a very smart teacher. And she
said Charlie your going to have a second chance. If you volenteer for this
experimental you mite get smart. They don't know if it will be permanent but
theirs a chance. Thats why I said ok even when I was scared because she said
it was an operashun. She said dont be scared Charlie you done so much with
so little I think you deserv it most of all.
So I got scaird when Dr Nemur and Dr Strauss argud about it. Dr Strauss
said I had something that was very good. He said I had a good motor-vation.
I never even knew I had that. I felt proud when he said that not every body
with an eye-q of 68 had that thing. I dont know what it is or where I got it
but he said Algernon had it too. Algernons motor-vation is the cheese they put
in his box. But it cant be that because I didnt eat any cheese this week.
Then he told Dr Nemur something I dint understand so while they were
talking I wrote down some of the words.
He said Dr Nemur I know Charlie is not what you had in mind as the
first of your new brede of intelek,Hr (coudnt get the word) superman. But most
people of his low menr"'* are host~d' and uncoop'~~' they are usualy dull
apath,'0': and hard to reach. He has a good natcher hes intristed and eager to
please.
Dr Nemur said remember he will be the first human beeng ever to have
his intelijence trippled by surgicle meens.
Dr Strauss said exakly. Look at how well hes lerned to read and write
for his low mentel age its as grate an acheve H as you and I lerning einstines
therey of **vity without help. That shows the intenss motor-vation. Its comparat**
a tremen~d' achev~d' I say we use Charlie.
I dint get all the words and they were talking to fast but it sounded like
Dr Strauss was on my side and like the other one wasnt.
Then Dr Nemur nodded he said all right maybe your right. We will use
Charlie. When he said that I got so exited I jumped up and shook his hand
for being so good to me. I told him thank you doc you wont be sorry for giving
me a second chance. And I mean it like I told him. After the operashun 1m
gonna try to be smart. 1m gonna try awful hard.
progris ript 5-Mar 10
1m skared. Lots of people who work here and the nurses and the people who
gave me the tests came to bring me candy and wish me luck. I hope I have
luck. I got my rabits foot and my lucky penny and my horse shoe. Only a black
cat crossed me when I was comming to the hospitil. Dr Strauss says dont be
supersitis Charlie this is sience. Anyway 1m keeping my rabits foot with me.
I.asked Dr Strauss if III beat Algernon in the race after the operashun
and he said maybe. If the operashun works III show that mouse I can be as
smart as he is. Maybe smarter. Then III be abel to read better and spell the
words good and know lots of things and be like other people. I want to be
smart like other people. If it works perminint they will make everybody smart
all over the wurld.
They dint give me anything to eat this morning. I dont know what that
eating has to do with getting smart. 1m very hungry and Dr Nemur took away
my box of candy. That Dr Nemur is a grouch. Dr Strauss says I can have it
back after the operashun. You cant eat befor a operashun ...
progress report 6-Mar 15
The operashun dint hurt. He did it while I was sleeping. They took off the
bandijis from my eyes and my head today so I can make a PROGRESS REPORT.
Dr Nemur who looked at some of my other ones says I spell PROGRESS wrong
and he told me how to spell it and REPORT too. I got to try and remember that.
I have a very bad memary for spelling. Dr Strauss says its ok to tell about
all the things that happin to me but he says I shoud tell more about what I
feel and what I think. When I told him I dont know how to think he said try.
All the time when the bandijis were on my eyes I tryed to think. Nothing
happened. I dont know what to think about. Maybe if I ask him he will tell
me how I can think now that 1m suppose to get smart. What do smart people
think about. Fancy things I suppose. I wish I knew some fancy things alredy.
progress report 7-mar 19
Nothing is happining. I had lots of tests and different kinds of races with
Algernon. I hate that mouse. He always beats me. Dr Strauss said I got to play
those games. And he said some time I got to take those tests over again. Thse
inkblots are stupid. And those pictures are stupid too. I like to draw a picture
of a man and a woman but I wont make up lies about people.
I got a headache from trying to think so much. I that Dr Strauss was my
frend but he dont help me. He dont tell me what to think or when III get smart.
Miss Kinnian dint come to see me. I think writing these progress reports are
stupid too.
progress report 8-Mar 23
1m going back to work at the factery. They said it was better I shud go back
to work but I cant tell anyone what the operashun was for and I have to come
to the hospitil for an hour evry night after work. They are gonna pay me many
every month for lerning to be smart.
1m glad 1m going back to work because I miss my job and all my frends
and all the fun we have there.
Dr Strauss says I shud keep writing things down but I dont have to do
it every day just when I think of something or something speshul happins. He
says dont get discoridged because it takes time and it happins slow. He says
it took a long time with Algernon before he got 3 times smarter then he was
before. Thats why Algernon beats me all the time because he had that opera·
shun too. That makes me feel better. I coud probly do that amazed faster than
a reglar mouse. Maybe some day III beat Algernon. Boy that would be some·
thing. So far Algernon looks like he mite be smart perminent.
Mar 25 (I dont have to write PROGRESS REPORT on top any more just when
I hand it in once a week for Dr Nemur to read. I just have to put the date on.
That saves time)
We had a lot of fun at the factery today. Joe Carp said hey look where
Charlie had his operashun what did they do Charlie put some brains in. I was
going to tell him but I remembered Dr Strauss said no. Then Frank Reilly said
what did you do Charlie forget your key and open your door the hard way.
That made me laft. Their really my friends and they like me.
Sometimes somebody will say hey look at Joe or Frank or George he
really pulled a Charlie Gordon. I dont know why they say that but they always
laft. This morning Amos Borg who is the 4 man at Donnegans used my name
when he shouted at Ernie the office boy. Ernie lost a packige. He said Ernie
for god sake what are you trying to be a Charlie Gordon. I dont understand
why he said that. I never lost any packiges.
Mar 28 Dr Strauss came to my room tonight to see why I dint come in like
I was suppose to. I told him I dont like to race with Algernon any more. He
said I dont have to for a while but I shud come in. He had a present for me
only it wasnt a present but just for lend. I that it was a little television but it
wasnt. He said I got to turn it on when I go to sleep. I said your kidding why
shud I turn it on when 1m going to sleep. Who ever herd of a thing like that.
But he said if I want to get smart I got to do what he says. I told him I dint
think I was going to get smart and he put his hand on my sholder and said
Charlie you dont know it yet but your getting smarter all the time. You wont
notice for a while. I think he was just being nice to make me feel good because
I dont look any smarter.
Oh yes I almost forgot. I asked him when I can go back to the class at
Miss Kinnians school. He said I wont go their. He said that soon Miss Kinnian
will come to the hospitil to start and teach me speshul. I was mad at her for
not comming to see me when I got the operashun but I like her so maybe we
will be frends again .
Mar 29 That crazy TV kept me up all night. How can I sleep with something
yelling crazy things all night in my ears. And the nutty pictures. Wow. I dont
know what it says when 1m up so how am I going to know when 1m sleeping.
Dr Strauss says its ok. He says my brains are leming when I sleep and
that will help me when Miss Kinnian starts my lessons in the hospitl (only I
found out it isnt a hospitil its a labatory). I think its all crazy. If you can get
smart when your sleeping why do people go to school. That thing I dont think
will work. I use to watch the late show and the late late show on TV all the
time and it never made me smart. Maybe you have to sleep while you watch
it.
PROGRESS REPORT 9-April 3
Dr Strauss showed me how to keep the TV turned low so now I can sleep. I
dont hear a thing. And I still dont understand what it says. A few times I play
it over in the morning to find out what I lerned when I was sleeping and I dont
think so. Miss Kinnian says Maybe its another langwidge or something. But
most times it sounds American. It talks so fast faster then even Miss Gold who
was my teacher in 6 grade and I remember she talked so fast I couldnt understand
her.
I told Dr Strauss what good is it to get smart in my sleep. I want to be
smart when 1m awake. He says its the same thing and I have two minds.
Theres the subconscious and the conscious (thats how you spell it). And one
dont tell the other one what its doing. They dont even talk to each other. Thats
why I dream. And boy have I been having crazy dreams. Wow. Ever since that
night TV. The late late late late late show.
I forgot to ask him if it was only me or if everybody had those two minds.
(I just looked up the word in the dictionary Dr Strauss gave me. The
word is subconscious. adj. Of the nature of mental operations yet not present
in consciousness; as, subconscious conflict of desires.) Theres more but I still
don't know what it means. This isnt a very good dictionary for dumb people
like me.
Anyway the headache is from the party. My frends from the factery Joe
Carp and Frank Reilly invited me to go with them to Muggsys Saloon for some
drinks. I dont like to drink but they said we will have lots of fun. I had a good
time.
Joe Carp said I shoud show the girls how I mop out the toilet in the
factory and he got me a mop. I showed them and everyone laffed when I told
that Mr Donnegan said I was the best janiter he ever had because I like my
job and do it good and never come late or miss a day except for my operashun.
I said Miss Kinnian always said Charlie be proud of your job because
you do it good.
Everybody laffed and we had a good time and they gave me lots of drinks
and Joe said Charlie is a card when hes potted. I dont know what that means
but everybody likes me and we have fun. I cant wait to be smart like my best
frends Joe Carp and Frank Reilly.
I donl remember how the party was over but I think I went out to buy
a newspaper and coffe for Joe and Frank and when I came back there was
no one their. I looked for them all over till late. Then I dont remember so good
but I think I got sleepy or sick. A nice cop brot me back home. Thats what
my landlady Mrs Flynn says.
But I got a headache and a big lump on my head and black and blue all
over. I think maybe I fell but Joe Carp says it was the cop they beat up drunks
some times. I don't think so. Miss Kinnian says cops are to help people.
Anyway I got a bad headache and 1m sick and hurt all over. I dont think III
drink anymore.
April6 I beat Algernon! I dint even know I beat him until Burt the tester told
me. Then the second time I lost because I got so exited I fell off the chair
before I finished. But after that I beat him 8 more times. I must be getting
smart to beat a srnart mouse like Algernon. But I dont feel smarter.
I wanted to race Algernon some more but Burt said thats enough for one
day. They let me hold him for a minit. Hes not so bad. Hes soft like a ball of
cotton. He blinks and when he opens his eyes their black and pink on the eges.
I said can I feed him because I felt bad to beat him and I wanted to be
nice and make frends. Burt said no Algernon is a very specshul mouse with
an operashun like mine, and he was the first of all the animals to stay smart
so long. He told me Algernon is so smart that every day he has to solve a test
to get his food. Its a thing like a lock on a door that changes every time
Algernon goes in to eat so he has to Iern something new to get his food. That
made me sad because if he coudnt lern he woud be hungry.
I dont think its right to make you pass a test to eat. How woud Dr Nemur
like it to have to pass a test every time he wants to eat. I think III be frends
with Algernon.
April 9 Tonight after work Miss Kinnian was at the laboratory. She looked
like she was glad to see me but scared. I told her dont worry Miss Kinnian
1m not smart yet and she laffed. She said I have confidence in you Charlie the
way you struggled so hard to read and right better than all the others. At werst
you will have it for a littel wile and your doing somthing for sience.
We are reading a very hard book. I never read such a hard book before.
Its called Robinson Crusoe about a man who gets merooned on a dessert
Iland. Hes smart and figers out all kinds of things so he can have a house and
food and hes a good swimmer. Only I feel sorry because hes all alone and has
no frends. But I think their must be somebody else on the iland because theres
a picture with his funny umbrella looking at footprints. 1 hope he gets a frend
and not be lonly.
April 10 Miss Kinnian teaches me to spell better. She says look at a word and
close your eyes and say it over and over until you remember. 1 have lots of
truble with through that you say threw and enough and tough that you dont
say enew and tew. You got to say enuff and tuff. Thats how I use to write it
before 1 started to get smart. 1m confused but Miss Kinnian says theres no
reason in spelling.
Apr 14 Finished Robinson Crusoe. 1 want to find out more about what
happens to him but Miss Kinnian says thats all there is. Why
Apr 15 Miss Kinnian says 1m leming fast. She read some of the Progress
Reports and she looked at me kind of funny. She says 1m a fine person and
III show them all. 1 asked her why. She said never mind but I shoudnt feel
bad if I find out that everybody isnt nice like I think. She said for a person
who god gave so little to you done more then a lot of people with brains they
never even used. 1 said all my frends are smart people but there good. They
like me and they never did anything that wasnt nice. Then she got something
in her eye and she had to run out to the ladys room.
Apr 16 Today, I lerned, the comma} this is a comma (,) a period, with a tail,
Miss Kinnian, says its importent, because} it makes writing, better, she said,
somebody, coud lose, a lot of money, if a comma, isnt, in the, right place, I dont
have, any money, and I dont see, how a comma, keeps you, from losing it,
But she says, everybody, uses commas, so III use, them too,
III
Apr 17 I used the comma wrong. Its punctuation. Miss Kinnian told me to
look up long words in the dictionary to lern to spell them. I said whats the
difference if you can read it anyway. She said its part of your education so
now on III look up all the words 1m not sure how to spell. It takes a long time
to write that way but I think 1m remembering. I only have to look up once
and after that I get it right. Anyway thats how come I got the word punctuation
right. (Its that way in the dictionary). Miss Kinnian says a period is
punctuation too, and there are lots of other marks to lern. I told her I thot
all the periods had to have tails but she said no.
You got to mix them up, she showed? me" how. to mix! them(up,. and
now; I can! mix up all kinds" of punctuation, in! my writing? There, are lots!
of rules? to lern; but 1m gettin'g them in my head.
One thing I? like about, Dear Miss Kinnian: (thats the way it goes in a
business letter if I ever go into business) is she, always gives me' a reason"
when-I ask. She's a gen'ius! I wish! I cou'd be smart" like, her;
(Punctuation, is; fun!)
April18 What a dope I am! I didn't even understand what she was talking
about. I read the grammar book last night and it explanes the whole thing.
Then I saw it was the same way as Miss Kinnian was trying to tell me, but
I didn't get it. I got up in the middle of the night, and the whole thing straightened
out in my mind.
Miss Kinnian said that the TV working in my sleep helped out. She said
I reached a plateau. Thats like the flat top of a hill.
After I figgered out how punctuation worked, I read over all myoid
Progress Reports from the beginning. Boy, did I have crazy spelling and
punctuation! I told Miss Kinnian I ought to go over the pages and fix all the
mistakes but she said, "No, Charlie, Dr. Nemur wants them just as they are.
That's why he let you keep them after they were photostated, to see your own
progress. You're coming along fast, Charlie."
That made me feel good. After the lesson I went down and played with
Algernon. We don't race any more.
April 20 I feel sick inside. Not sick like for a doctor, but inside my chest it
feels empty like getting punched and a heartburn at the same time.
I wasn't going to write about it, but I guess I got to, because it's important.
Today was the first time I ever stayed home from work.
Last night Joe Carp and Frank Reilly invited me to a party. There were
lots of girls and some men from the factory. I remembered how sick I got last
time I drank too much, so I told Joe I didn't want anything to drink. He gave
me a plain Coke instead. It ta'sted funny, but I thought it was just a bad taste
in my mouth.
We had a lot of fun for a while. Joe said I should dance with Ellen and
she would teach me the steps. I fell a few times and I couldn't understand why
because no one else was dancing besides Ellen and me. And all the time I was
tripping because somebody's foot was always sticking out.
Then when I got up I saw the look on Joe's face and it gave me a funny
feeling in my stomack. "He's a scream," one of the girls said. Everybody was
laughing.
Frank said, "I ain't laughed so much since we sent him off for the
newspaper that night at Muggsy's and ditched him."
"Look at him. His face is red."
"He's blushing. Charlie is blushing."
"Hey, Ellen, what'd you do to Charlie? I never saw him act like that
before."
I didn't know what to do or where to turn. Everyone was looking at me
and laughing and I felt naked. I wanted to hide myself. I ran out into the street
and I threw up. Then I walked home. It's a funny thing I never knew that Joe
and Frank and the others liked to have me around all the time to make fun
of me.
Now I know what it means when they say "to pull a Charlie Gordon."
I'm ashamed.
PROGRESS REPORT 11
April 21 Still didn't go into the factory. I told Mrs. Flynn my landlady to call
and tell Mr. Donnegan I was sick. Mrs. Flynn looks at me very funny lately
like she's scared of me.
I think it's a good thing about finding out how everybody laughs at me.
I thought about it a lot. It's because I'm so dumb and I don't even know when
I'm doing something dumb. People think it's funny when a dumb person can't
do things the same way they can.
Anyway, now I know I'm getting smarter every day. I know punctuation
and I can spell good. I like to look up all the hard words in the dictionary and
I remember them. I'm reading a lot now, and Miss Kinnian says I read very
fast. Sometimes I even understand what I'm reading about, and it stays in my
mind. There are times when I can close my eyes and think of a page and it
all comes back like a picture.
Besides history, geography, and arithmetic, Miss Kinnian said I should
start to learn a few foreign languages. Dr. Strauss gave me some more tapes
to play while I sleep. I still don't understand how that conscious and unconscious
mind works, but Dr. Strauss says not to worry yet. He asked me to
promise that when I start learning college subjects next week I wouldn't read
any books on psychology-that is, until he gives me permission.
I feel a lot better today, but I guess I'm still a little angry that all the time
people were laughing and making fun of me because I wasn't so smart. When
I become intelligent like Dr. Strauss says, with three times my LO. of 68, then
maybe I'll be like everyone else and people will like me and be friendly.
I'm not sure what an LO. is. Dr. Nemur said it was something that
measured how intelligent you were-like a scale in the drugstore weighs
pounds. But Dr. Strauss had a big argument with him and said an LO. didn't
weigh intelligence at all. He said an LO. showed how much intelligence you
could get, like the numbers on the outside of a measuring cup. You still had
to fill the cup up with stuff.
Then when I asked Burt, who gives me my intelligence tests and works
with Algernon, he said that both of them were wrong (only I had to promise
not to tell them he said so). Burt says that the 1.0. measures a lot of different
things including some of the things you learned already, and it really isn't any
good at all.
So I still don't know what LO. is except that mine is going to be over 200
soon. I didn't want to say anything, but I don't see how if they don't know
what it is, or where it is-I don't see how they know how much of it you've
got.
Dr. Nemur says I have to take a Rorshach Test tomorrow. I wonder what
that is.
April 22 I found out what a Rorshach is. It's the test I took before the
operation-the one with the inkblots on the pieces of cardboard. The man
who gave me the test was the same one.
I was scared to death of those inkblots. I knew he was going to ask me
to find the pictures and I knew I wouldn't be able to. I was thinking to myself,
if only there was some way of knowing what kind of pictures were hidden
there. Maybe there weren't any pictures at all. Maybe it was just a trick to see
if I was dumb enough to look for something that wasn't there. Just thinking
about that made me sore at him.
"All right, Charlie," he said, "you've seen these cards before, remember?"
"Of course I remember."
The way I said it, he knew the test still doesn't make sense to me. It seems to me that anyone could
make up lies about things that they didn't really see. How could he know I
wasn't making a fool of him by mentioning things that I didn't really imagine?
Maybe I'll understand it when Dr. Strauss lets me read up on psychology.
April25 I figured out a new way to line up the machines in the factory, and
Mr. Donnegan says it will save him ten thousand dollars a year in labor and
increased production. He gave me a twenty-five-dollar bonus.
I wanted to take Joe Carp and Frank Reilly out to lunch to celebrate, but
Joe said he had to buy some things for his wife, and Frank said he was
meeting his cousin for lunch. I guess it'll take a little time for them to get used
to the changes in me. Everybody seems to be frightened of me. When I went
over to Amos Borg and tapped him on the shoulder, he jumped up in the
air.
People don't talk to me much any more or kid around the way they used
to. It makes the job kind of lonely.
April 27 I got up the nerve today to ask Miss Kinnian to have dinner with
me tomorrow night to celebrate my bonus.
At first she wasn't sure it was right, but I asked Dr. Strauss and he said
it was okay. Dr. Strauss and Dr. Nemur don't seem to be getting along so well.
They're arguing all the time. This evening when I came in to ask Dr. Strauss
about having dinner with Miss Kinnian, I heard them shouting. Dr. Nemur
was saying that it was his experiment and his research, and Dr. Strauss was
shouting back that he contributed just as much, because he found me through
Miss Kinnian and he performed the operation. Dr. Strauss said that someday
thousands of neurosurgeons might be using his technique all over the
world.
Dr. Nemur wanted to publish the results of the experiment at the end of
this month. Dr. Strauss wanted to wait a while longer to be sure. Dr. Strauss
said that Dr. Nemur was more interested in the Chair of Psychology at Princeton
than he was in the experiment. Dr. Nemur said that Dr. Strauss was
nothing but an opportunist who was trying to ride to glory on his coattails.
When I left afterwards, I found myself trembling. I don't know why for
sure, but it was as if I'd seen both men clearly for the first time. I remember
hearing Burt say that Dr. Nemur had a shrew of a wife who was pushing him
all the time to get things published so that he could become famous. Burt said
that the dream of her life was to have a big-shot husband.
Was Dr. Strauss really trying to ride on his coattails?
April28 I don't understand why I never noticed how beautiful Miss Kinnian
really is. She has brown eyes and feathery brown hair that comes to the top
of her neck. She's only thirty-four! I think from the beginning I had the feeling
that she was an unreachable genius-and very, very old. Now, every time I
see her she grows younger and more lovely.
We had dinner and a long talk. When she said that I was coming along
so fast that soon I'd be leaving her behind, I laughed.
"It's true, Charlie. You're already a better reader that I am. You can read
a whole page at a glance while I can take in only a few lines at a time. And
you remember every single thing you read. I'm lucky if I can recall the main
thoughts and the general meaning."
"I don't feel intelligent. There are so many things I don't understand."
She took out a cigarette and I lit it for her. "You've got to be a little
patient. You're accomplishing in days and weeks what it takes normal people
to do in half a lifetime. That's what makes it so amazing. You're like a giant
sponge now, soaking things in. Facts, figures, general knowledge. And soon
you'll begin to connect them, too. You'll see how the different branches of
learning are related. There are many levels, Charlie, like steps on a giant
ladder that take you up higher and higher to see more and more of the world
around you.
"I can see only a little bit of that, Charlie, and I won't go much higher
than I am now, but you'll keep climbing up and up, and see more and more,
and each step will open new worlds that you never even knew existed." She
frowned. "I hope ... I just hope to God-"
"What?"
"Never mind, Charles. Ijust hope I wasn't wrong to advise you to go into
this in the first place."
I laughed. "How could that be? It worked, didn't it? Even Algernon is still
smart."
We sat there silently for a while and I knew what she was thinking about
as she watched me toying with the chain of my rabbit's foot and my keys. I
didn't want to think of that possibility any more than elderly people want to
think of death. I knew that this was only the beginning. I knew what she
meant about levels because I'd seen some of them already. The thought of
leaving her behind made me sad.
I'm in love with Miss Kinnian.
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April30 I've quit my job with Donnegan's Plastic Box Company. Mr. Donnegan
insisted that it would be better for all concerned if I left. What did I do
to make them hate me so?
The first I knew of it was when Mr. Donnegan showed me the petition.
Eight hundred and forty names, everyone connected with the factory, except
Fanny Girden. Scanning the list quickly, I saw at once that hers was the only
missing name. All the rest demanded that I be fired.
Joe Carp and Frank Reilly wouldn't talk to me about it. No one else
would either, except Fanny. She was one of the few people I'd known who set
her mind to something and believed it no matter what the rest of the world
proved, said, or did-and Fanny did not believe that I should have been fired.
She had been against the petition on principle and despite the pressure and
threats she'd held out.
"Which don't mean to say," she remarked, "that I don't think there's
something mighty strange about you, Charlie. Them changes. I don't know.
You used to be a good, dependable, ordinary man-not too bright maybe, but
honest. Who knows what you done to yourself to get so smart all of a sudden.
Like everybody around here's been saying, Charlie, it's not right."
"But how can you say that, Fanny? What's wrong with a man becoming
intelligent and wanting to acquire knowledge and understanding of the world
around him?"
She stared down at her work and I turned to leave. Without looking at
me, she said: "It was evil when Eve listened to the snake and ate from the tree
of knowledge. It was evil when she saw that she was naked. If not for that
none of us would ever have to grow old and sick, and die."
Once again now I have the feeling of shame burning inside me. This
intelligence has driven a wedge between me and all the people I once knew
and loved. Before, they laughed at me and despised me for my ignorance and
dullness; now, they hate me for my knowledge and understanding. What in
God's name do they want of me?
They've driven me out of the factory. Now I'm more alone than ever
before ...
May 15 Dr. Strauss is very angry at me for not having written any progress
reports in two weeks. He's justified because the lab is now paying me a regular
salary. I told him I was too busy thinking and reading. When I pointed out
that writing was such a slow process that it made me impatient with my poor
handwriting, he suggested that I learn to type. It's much easier to write now
because I can type nearly seventy-five words a minute. Dr. Strauss continually
reminds me of the need to speak and write simply so that people will be able
to understand me.
I'll try to review all the things that happened to me during the last two
weeks. Algernon and I were presented to the American Psychological Association
sitting in convention with the World Psychological Association last Tuesday.
We created quite a sensation. Dr. Nemur and Dr. Strauss were proud of
us.
I suspect that Dr. Nemur, who is sixty-ten years older than Dr. Strauss
-finds it necessary to see tangible results of his work. Undoubtedly the result
of pressure by Mrs. Nemur.
Contrary to my earlier impressions of him, I realize that Dr. Nemur is
not at all a genius. He has a very good mind, but it struggles under the spectre
of self-doubt. He wants people to take him for a genius. Therefore, it is
important for him to feel that his work is accepted by the world. I believe that
Dr. Nemur was afraid of further delay because he worried that someone else
might make a discovery along these lines and take the credit from him.
Dr. Strauss on the other hand might be called a genius, although I feel
that his areas of knowledge are too limited. He was educated in the tradition
of narrow specialization; the broader aspects of background were neglected
far more than necessary-even for a neurosurgeon.
I was shocked to learn that the only ancient languages he could read
were Latin, Greek, and Hebrew, and that he knows almost nothing of mathematics beyond the elementary levels of the calculus of variations. When he
admitted this to me, I found myself almost annoyed. It was as if he'd hidden
this part of himself in order to deceive me, pretending-as do many people
I've discovered-to be what he is not. No one I've ever known is what he
appears to be on the surface.
Dr. Nemur appears to be uncomfortable around me. Sometimes when
I try to talk to him, he just looks at me strangely and turns away. I was angry
at first when Dr. Strauss told me I was giving Dr. Nemur an inferiority
complex. I thought he was mocking me and I'm oversensitive at being made
fun of.
How was I to know that a highly respected psychoexperimentalist like
Nemur was unacquainted with Hindustani and Chinese? It's absurd when you
consider the work that is being done in India and China today in the very field
of his study.
I asked Dr. Strauss how Nemur could refute Rahajamati's attack on his
method and results if Nemur couldn't even read them in the first place. That
strange look on Dr. Strauss' face can mean only one of two things. Either he
doesn't want to tell Nemur what they're saying in India, or else-and this
worries me-Dr. Strauss doesn't know either. I must be careful to speak and
write clearly and simply so that people won't laugh.
May J8 I am very disturbed. I saw Miss Kinnian last night for the first time
in over a week. I tried to avoid all discussions of intellectual concepts and to
keep the conversation on a simple, everyday level, but she just stared at me
blankly and asked me what I meant about the mathematical variance equivalent
in Dorbermann's Fifth Concerto. .IJ
When I tried to explain she stopped me and laughed. I guess I got angry,
but I suspect I'm approaching her on the wrong level. No matter w~at I try
to discuss with her, I am unable to communicate. I must review Vrostadt's
equations on Levels of Semantic Progression. I find that I don't communicate
with people much any more. Thank God for books and music and things I can
think about. I am alone in my apartment at Mrs. Flynn's boardinghouse most
of the time and seldom speak to anyone.
May 20 I would not have noticed the new dishwasher, a boy of about sixteen,
at the corner diner where I take my evening meals if not for the incident of
the broken dishes.
They crashed to the floor, shattering and sending bits of white china
under the tables. The boy stood there, dazed and frightened, holding the
empty tray in his hand. The whistles and catcalls from the customers (the
cries of "hey, there go the profits!" ... "Mazeltov!" ... and "well, he didn't work
here very long ..." which invariably seems to follow the breaking of glass or
dishware in a public restaurant) all seemed to confuse him..'
When the owner carne to see what the excitement was about, the boy
cowered as if he expected to be struck and threw up his anTIS as if to ward
off the blow.
"All right! All right, you dope," shouted the owner, "don't just stand there! Get the broom and sweep that mess up. A broom. , . a broom, you idiot! It's
in the kitchen. Sweep up all the pieces."
The boy saw that he was not going to be punished. His frightened expreshe
sion disappeared and he smiled and hummed as he came back with the broom
to sweep the floor. A few of the rowdier customers kept up the remarks,
amusing themselves at his expense.
"Here, sonny, over here there's a nice piece behind you ..."
"C'mon, do it again .. ,"
"He's not so dumb. It's easier to break 'em than to wash 'em ..."
As his vacant eyes moved across the crowd of amused onlookers, he
slowly mirrored their smiles and finally broke into an uncertain grin at the
joke which he obviously did not understand.
I felt sick inside as I looked at his dull, vacuous smile, the wide, bright
eyes of a child, uncertain but eager to please. They were laughing at him
because he was mentally retarded.
And I had been laughing at him too.
Suddenly, I was furious at myself and all those who were smirking at
him. I jumped up and shouted, "Shut up! Leave him alone! It's not his fault
he can't understand! He can't help what he is! But for God's sake ... he's still
a human being!"
The room grew silent. I cursed myself for losing control and creating a
scene. I tried not to look at the boy as I paid my check and walked out without
touching my food. I felt ashamed for both of us.
How strange it is that people of honest feelings and sensibility, who
would not take advantage of a man born without arms or legs or eyes-how
such people think nothing of abusing a man born with low intelligence. It
infuriated me to think that not too long ago I, like this boy, had foolishly
played the clown.
And I had almost forgotten.
I'd hidden the picture of the old Charlie Gordon from myself because
now that I was intelligent it was something that had to be pushed out of my
mind. But today in looking at that boy, for the first time I saw what I had been.
I was just like him!
Only a short time ago, I learned that people laughed at me. Now I can
see that unknowingly I joined with them in laughing at myself. That hurts
f most of all.
I have often reread my progress reports and seen the illiteracy, the
childish naIvete, the mind of low intelligence peering from a dark room,
through the keyhole, at the dazzling light outside. I see that even in my
dullness I knew that I was inferior, and that other people had something
I lacked-something denied me. In my mental blindness, I thought that it
was somehow connected with the ability to read and write, and I was
sure that if I could get those skills I would automatically have intelligence
too.
Even a feeble-minded man wants to be like other men.
A child may not know how to feed itself, or what to eat, yet it knows of
hunger.
This then is what I was like, I never knew. Even with my gift of intellec i.,' tual awareness, I never really knew.
This day was good for me. Seeing the past more clearly, I have decided
to use my knowledge and skills to work in the field of increasing human
intelligence levels. Who is better equipped for this work? Who else has lived
in both worlds? These are my people. Let me use my gift to do something for
them.
Tomorrow, I will discuss with Dr. Strauss the manner in which I can
work in this area. I may be able to help him work out the problems of
widespread use of the technique which was used on me. I have several good
ideas of my own.
There is so much that might be done with this technique. If I could be
made into a genius, what about thousands of others like myself? What fantastic
levels might be achieved by using this technique on normal people? On
geniuses?
There are so many doors to open. I am impatient to begin.
PROGRESS REPORT 13
May 23 It happened today. Algernon bit me. I visited the lab to see him as
I do occasionally, and when I took him out of his cage, he snapped at my
hand. I put him back and watched him for a while. He was unusually disturbed
and vicious.
May 24 Burt, who is in charge of the experimental animals, tells me that
Algernon is changing. He is less co-operative; he refuses to run the maze any
more; general motivation has decreased. And he hasn't been eating. Everyone
is upset about what this may mean.
May 25 They've been feeding Algernon, who now refuses to work the shifting-lock
problem. Everyone identifies me with Algernon. In a way we're both
the first of our kind. They're all pretending that Algernon's behavior is not
necessarily significant for me. But it's hard to hide the fact that some of the
other animals who were used in this experiment are showing strange behavlOr.
Dr. Strauss and Dr. Nemur have asked me not to come to the lab any
more. I know what they're thinking but I can't accept it. I am going ahead with
my plans to carry their research forward. With all due respect to both of these
fine scientists, I am well aware of their limitations. If there is an answer, I'll
have to find it out for myself. Suddenly, time has become very important to
me.
May 29 I have been given a lab of my own and permission to go ahead with
the research. I'm on to something. Working day and night. I've had a cot
moved into the lab. Most of my writing time is spent on the notes which I keep
in a separate folder, but from time to time I feel it necessary to put down my
moods and my thoughts out of sheer habit.
I find the calculus of intelligence to be a fascinating study. Here is the place for the application of all the knowledge I have acquired. In a sense it's
the problem I've been concerned with all my life.
May 31 Dr. Strauss thinks I'm working too hard. Dr. Nemur says I'm trying
or to cram a lifetime of research and thought into a few weeks. I know I should
rest, but I'm driven on by something inside that won't let me stop. I've got to
m find the reason for the sharp regression in Algernon. I've got to know if and
of when it will happen to me.
June 4
LETTER TO DR. STRAUSS (copy)
Dear Dr. Strauss:
Under separate cover I am sending you a copy of my report entitled,
"The Algernon-Gordon Effect: A Study of Structure and Function of Increased
Intelligence," which I would like to have you read and have published.
As you see, my experiments are completed. I have included in my
report all of my formulae, as well as mathematical analysis in the appendix.
Of course, these should be verified.
Because of its importance to both you and Dr. Nemur (and need I say
to myself, too?) I have checked and rechecked my results a dozen times in
the hope of finding an error. I am sorry to say the results must stand. Yet
for the sake of science, I am grateful for the little bit that I here add to the
it knowledge of the function of the human mind and of the laws governing
the artificial increase of human intelligence.
I recall your once saying to me that an experimental failure or the
disproving of a theory was as important to the advancement of learning as
a success would be. I know now that this is true. I am sorry, however, that
my own contribution to the field must rest upon the ashes of the work of
two men I regard so highly.
Yours truly,
Charles Gordon
June 5 I must not become emotional. The facts and the results of my experiments are clear, and the more sensational aspects of my own rapid climb
e cannot obscure the fact that the tripling of intelligence by the surgical tech
.1 nique developed by Drs. Strauss and Nemur must be viewed as having little
) or no practical applicability (at the present time) to the increase of human
intelligence.
As I review the records and data on Algernon, I see that although he is
still in his physical infancy, he has regressed mentally. Motor activity is
impaired; there is a general reduction of glandular activity; there is an ac
) celerated loss of co-ordination.
There are also strong indications of progressive amnesia.
As will be seen by my report, these and other physical and mental
deterioration syndromes can be predicted with statistically significant results
by the application of my formula.
The surgical stimulus to which we were both subjected has resulted in an intensification and acceleration of all mental processes. The unforeseen
development, which I have taken the liberty of calling the Algernon-Gordon
Effect, is the logical extension of the entire intelligence speed-up. The hypothesis
here proven may be described simply in the following terms: Artifically
increased intelligence deteriorates at a rate of time directly proportional to
the quantity of the increase.
I feel that this, in itself, is an important discovery.
As long as I am able to write, I will continue to record my thoughts in
these progress reports. It is one of my few pleasures. However, by all indications,
my own mental deterioration will be very rapid.
I have already begun to notice signs of emotional instability and forgetfulness,
the first symptoms of the burnout.
June 10 Deterioration progressing. I have become absent-minded. Algernon
died two days ago. Dissection shows my predictions were right. His brain had
decreased in weight and there was a general smoothing out of cerebral convolutions
as well as a deepening and broadening of brain fissures.
I guess the same thing is or will soon be happening to me. Now that it's
definite, I don't want it to happen.
I put Algernon's body in a cheese box and buried him in the back yard.
I cried.
June 15 Dr. Strauss came to see me again. I wouldn't open the door and I
told him to go away. I want to be left to myself. I have become touchy and
irritable. I feel the darkness closing in. It's hard to throw off thoughts of
suicide. I keep telling myself how important this introspective jour·nal will be.
It's a strange sensation to pick up a book that you've read and enjoyed
just a few months ago and discover that you don't remember it. I remembered
how great I thought John Milton was, but when I picked up Paradise Lost I
couldn't understand it at all. I got so angry I threw the book across the room.
I've got to try to hold on to some of it. Some of the things I've learned.
Oh, God, please don't take it all away.
June 19 Sometimes, at night, I go out for a walk. Last night I couldn't
remember where I lived. A policeman took me home. I have the strange
feeling that this has all happened to me before-a long time ago. I keep telling
myself I'm the only person in the world who can describe what's happening
to me.
June 21 Why can't I remember? I've got to fight. I lie in bed for days and I
don't know who or where I am. Then it all comes back to me in a flash. Fugues
of amnesia. Symptoms of senility-second childhood. I can watch them coming
on. It's so cruelly logical. I learned so much and so fast. Now my mind
is deteriorating rapidly. I won't let it happen. I'll fight it. I can't help thinking
of the boy in the restaurant, the blank expression, the silly smile, the people
laughing at him. No-please-not that again ...
June 22 I'm forgetting things that I learned recently. It seems to be following
the classic pattern-the last things learned are the first things forgotten. Or
is that the pattern? I'd better look it up again ....
I reread my paper on the Algernon-Gordon Effect and I get the strange
feeling that it was written by someone else. There are parts I don't even
understand.
Motor activity impaired. I keep tripping over things, and it becomes
increasingly difficult to type.
June 23 I've given up using the typewriter completely. My co-ordination is
bad. I feel that I'm moving slower and slower. Had a terrible shock today. I
picked up a copy of an article I used in my research, Krueger's Uber psychische
Ganzheit, to see if it would help me understand what I had done. First
I thought there was something wrong with my eyes. Then I realized I could
no longer read German. I tested myself in other languages. All gone.
June 30 A week since I dared to write again. It's slipping away like sand
through my fingers. Most of the books I have are too hard for me now. I get
angry with them because I know that I read and understood them just a few
weeks ago.
I keep telling myself I must keep writing these reports so that somebody
will know what is happening to me. But it gets harder to form the words and
remember spellings. I have to look up even simple words in the dictionary
now and it makes me impatient with myself.
Dr. Strauss comes around almost every day, but I told him I wouldn't
see or speak to anybody. He feels guilty. They all do. But I don't blame anyone.
I knew what might happen. But how it hurts.
July 7 I don't know where the week went. Todays Sunday I know because
I can see through my window people going to church. I think I stayed in bed
all week but I remember Mrs. Flynn bringing food to me a few times. I keep
saying over and over Ive got to do something but then I forget or maybe its
just easier not to do what I say 1m going to do.
I think of my mother and father a lot these days. I found a picture of
them with me taken at a beach. My father has a big ball under his arm and
my mother is holding me by the hand. I dont remember them the way they
are in the picture. All I remember is my father drunk most of the time and
arguing with mom about money.
He never shaved much and he used to scratch my face when he hugged
me. My mother said he died but Cousin Miltie said he heard his mom and
dad say that my father ran away with another woman. When I asked my
mother she slapped my face and said my father was dead. I dont think I
ever found out which was true but 1 don't care much. (He said he was going
to take me to see cows on a farm once but he never did. He never kept his
promises ...)
July 10 My landlady Mrs Flynn is very worried about me. She says the way
1 lay around all day and dont do anything 1 remind her of her son before she
threw him out of the house. She said she doesn't like loafers. If 1m sick its one
thing, but if 1m a loafer thats another thing and she wont have it. 1 told her
1 think 1m sick.
I try to read a little bit every day, mostly stories, but sometimes 1 have
to read the same thing over and over again because 1 dont know what it
means. And its hard to write. I know I should look up all the words in the
dictionary but its so hard and 1m so tired all the time.
Then I got the idea that I would only use the easy words instead of the
long hard ones. That saves time. 1 put flowers on Algernons grave about once
a week. Mrs Flynn thinks 1m crazy to put flowers on a mouses grave but 1 told
her that Algernon was special.
July 14 Its sunday again. I dont have anything to do to keep me busy now
because my television set is broke and 1 dont have any money to get it fixed.
(I think 1 lost this months check from the lab. I dont remember)
I get awful headaches and asperin doesnt help me much. Mrs Flynn
knows 1m really sick and she feels very sorry for me. Shes a wonderful
woman whenever someone is sick.
July 22 Mrs Flynn called a strange doctor to see me. She was afraid I was
going to die. I told the doctor I wasnt too sick and that I only forget sometimes.
He asked me did I have any friends or relatives and I said np 1 dont
have any. I told him I had a friend called Algernon once but he was a mouse
and we used to run races together. He looked at me kind of funny like he
thought 1 was crazy.
He smiled when I told him I used to be a genius. He talked to me like
I was a baby and he winked at Mrs Flynn. I got mad and chased him out
because he was making fun of me the way they all used to.
July 24 I have no more money and Mrs Flynn says I got to go to work
somewhere and pay the rent because I havent paid for over two months. 1
dont know any work but the job I used to have at Donnegans Plastic Box
Company. I dont want to go back there because they all knew me when I was
smart and maybe theylllaugh at me. But I dont know what else to do to get
money.
July 25 I was looking at some of myoid progress reports and its very funny
but I cant read what I wrote. I can make out some of the words but they dont
make sense.
Miss Kinnian came to the door but I said go away I dont want to see you.
She cried and I cried too but I wouldnt let her in because I didnt want her
to laugh at me. 1 told her 1 didn't like her any more. I told her 1 didnt want
to be smart any more. Thats not true. I still love her and I still want to be smart
but I had to say that so shed go away. She gave Mrs Flynn money to pay the
rent. I dont want that. 1 got to get a job.
Please ... please let me not forget how to read and write ...
July 27 Mr Donnegan was very nice when I came back and asked him for
myoid job of janitor. First he was very suspicious but I told him what happened
to me then he looked very sad and put his hand on my shoulder and
said Charlie Gordon you got guts.
Everybody looked at me when I came downstairs and started working
in the toilet sweeping it out like I used to. I told myself Charlie if they make
fun of you dont get sore because you remember their not so smart as you once
thot they were. And besides they were once your friends and if they laughed
at you that doesnt mean anything because they liked you too.
One of the new men who came to work there after I went away made
a nasty crack he said hey Charlie 1 hear your a very smart fella a real quiz
kid. Say something intelligent. I felt bad but Joe Carp came over and grabbed
him by the shirt and said leave him alone you lousy cracker or III break your
neck. I didnt expect Joe to take my part so I guess hes really my friend.
Later Frank Reilly came over and said Charlie if anybody bothers you
or trys to take advantage you call me or Joe and we will set em straight. I said
thanks Frank and I got choked up so I had to turn around and go into the
supply room so he wouldnt see me cry. Its good to have friends.
July 28 I did a dumb thing today I forgot I wasnt in Miss Kinnians class at
the adult center any more like I use to be. I went in and sat down in myoId
seat in the back of the room and she looked at me funny and she said Charles.
I dint remember she ever called me that before only Charlie so I said hello
Miss Kinnian 1m redy for my lesin today only I lost my reader that we was
using. She startid to cry and run out of the room and everybody looked at me
and I saw they wasnt the same pepul who used to be in my class.
Then all of a suddin I remembered some things about the operashun and
me getting smart and I said holy smoke I reely pulled a Charlie Gordon that
time. I went away before she come back to the room.
Thats why 1m going away from New York for good. I dont want to do
nothing like that agen. 1 dont want Miss Kinnian to feel sorry for me. Evry
body feels sorry at the factery and I dont want that eather so 1m going
someplace where nobody knows that Charlie Gordon was once a genus and
now he cant even reed a book or rite good.
1m taking a cuple of books along and even if I cant reed them III practise
hard and maybe I wont forget every thing 1 lerned. If 1 try reel hard maybe
III be a littel bit smarter then I was before the operashun. 1 got my rabits foot
and my luky penny and maybe they will help me.
If you ever reed this Miss Kinnian dont be sorry for me 1m glad I got
a second chanse to be smart becaus I lerned a lot of things that I never even
new were in this world and 1m grateful that I saw it all for a litte! bit. I dont
know why 1m dumb agen or what I did wrong maybe its becaus I dint try hard
enuff. But if I try and practis very hard maybe III get a littl smarter and know
what all the words are. I remember a littel bit how nice I had a feeling with
the blue book that has the torn cover when I red it. Thats why 1m gonna keep
trying to get smart so I can have that feeling agen. Its a good feeling to know
things and be smart. I wish I had it rite now if I did I would sit down and reed
all the time. Anyway I bet 1m the first dumb person in the world who ever
found out somthing importent for sience. I remember I did somthing but I
dont remember what. So I gess its like I did it for all the dumb pepullike me.
Good-by Miss Kinnian and Dr Strauss and evreybody. And P.S. please
tell Dr Nemur not to be such a grouch when pepul 1aff at him and he woud
have more frends. Its easy to make frends if you let pepul laff at you. 1m going
to have lots of frends where I go.
P.P.S. Please if you get a chanse put some flowrs on Algernons grave in the
back yard ...
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